Looks like I had some problem expressing myself. I'm sure i'm not a reversed x-tian, that's for sure. And the thing with dark and sinister, wasn't refering to devils or horror creatures. Yea, that's what I want, to start all over. But I need some help with that. Where should I start, with...

Few will read this till the end, and fewer will answer. But it's time for me to "confess". I have a sort of a problem. Many years ago, I started being a satanist. I was spiritually advanced, I used to do a lot of rituals, and study theory(which I still remember). The thing is I was a part of...