Hi dear brother, I think you need to balance progress with problem-solving. I'm so sorry you're having this problem, but I think it's crucial to stay in harmony.
Always listen to your body and proceed gradually. It's better to proceed slowly than to find yourself in burnout. Progress seems slow, but it's there. Burnout is exhausting. Think about how far you've come; little by little, you'll get even higher.
We start from different points, and sometimes it seems impossible, especially when you're feeling down or tired. Recover, improve your sleep, and take supplements.
I speak mainly from experience, because this is a difficult time for me too, and I'd like to feel better tomorrow, but we have to fight to get what we want.
Good luck!
We will all be better off one day!
Thank you, I will try to be less hard on myself and more into balance, I just have been getting angry, I feel I should be doing more here and in my physical life, but I'm very tapped out between everything.
If Father and Lord Ares have told you that you must take your time, then my dear Brother you must do your absolute best to heed their advice. They know best for you, quite a while ago when i was first getting back on the path earlier this year, during my meditation routine that was all over the place. I recall suddenly asking out loud if there is anything i can do to change my meditations what would it be. Then after not even a second had passed and i just heard the word EVERYTHING it wasn't one voice but multiple that sounded stacked on top of each other, hard to figure out how many voices but i know it was several speaking at once. This was not an in my mind hearing of these voices, but it was external in my room. I then shortly after that started to follow the 40 day meditation program by our High Priest. Once i completed that i continued the cleaning steadily and just recently completed a 28 day cycle of purification, i too get a bit bogged down about not being advanced as much as i feel i should. However i have been learning that it will take as long as it needs to with consistency, and i am not worrying anymore about this and am just trusting the process of how my advancement is progressing as i continue to meditate. Hopefully this can help someone in some way, i know this a long one but i feel the detail is important in ones experience, be blessed always everyone.
Thank you, I agree. I just feel like I'm not useful enough in my personal life, or around here in the Temple. Like i do some outreach, and try to reply to posts, but that is kind of the extent of it currently. I know I should be more lenient on myself because of disabilities, but it makes me angry at myself.
What kind of digestive issues and disease if you don't mind sharing? Triphala is used as a base in Ayurveda for many ailments as it is believed that most diseases have their origins in the gut. It's also great for overall health and maybe add a small amount of Trikatu if you are lacking in digestive fire. Triphala is pretty safe and considered balancing so it won't matter which dosha you are.
I have a Traditional Chinese Medicine pattern of Spleen Qi Deficiency, Blood and Qi deficiency, Cold Phlegm Stagnation that has carried over for roughly 20 years. It is proving fairly difficult to turn around, but I am still working on it.
I will need to look into Triphala, thank you my fellow Zevist.