To give context. I am the oldest in my family, and since around 12 or so I've had to grow up and be the man of the house. My 2 younger brothers the second and third oldest come from a different father.
So for the longest time I have been sacrificing majority of my time and goals in order to make sure everything at home is good, I've always had this issue where my other siblings get special treatment. Where certain things don't apply to them.
But lately every since the enemy has chosen to convince my youngest brother that " Jesus" is speaking directly through him and he is the chosen one all that. It has become intolerable. Now he doesn't need to do anything of behave or listening because " his doing the Lord's work" and he recently decided to head to his Father and complain that I'm telling him off about his bad behaviour and some how it comes back as " Me abusing him, giving him unfair treatment and his special now so he can't be treated like other kids" I have absolutely had it. Now I'm perspective enough to understand that at this point there's nothing I can do and I don't hate them but for my own peace and sanity I just need to leave them.
Which has been rather a hard decision for me to actually come to terms with as I've always put them above everything else, and now I have to put myself.
I am certain this came at the perfect time also as I was planning on marriage within the second half of year and I don't want them there, although I'll have my family there attending.
And this isn't a issue that steams from anything else I haven't had a any bad vibes towards or over the edge issues. It's just only now recently that this has been an issue. So I'm choosing peace.
Also as the " chosen " he somehow acts like his untouchable and all mighty. Walking around judging and condemning those who he doesn't like. Trying to convert people children and created a whole " spiritual group" made of kids. 🤦And of course no one seeing and issues with that, and I've even had to beg my mother to talk to him and make sure they both acted normally at a family event we went too cause I didn't want to have them cause more issues.
I would love to hear any additional advice anyone has.
Hail Zeus
HAIL ZEUS
I am unsure how old you are currently, among the rest of your situation, but I can advise to formulate a plan to pick up and leave.
I would not call it cowardice, especially if those who do wrong, glorify themselves in their wrongdoing, celebrate it, and actively pull others into it in not only hurting themselves, knowingly or unknowingly, but also pull you and your own personal life into things. That drama is toxic, 1000 fold if not more when it involves the enemy spun into the situation. For now, I would imagine it would be good, especially if you are trying to accelerate your life, to become more independent, to find opportunities to do that in a stable fashion.
I had grown up in a nasty christian environment too, will spare details, but it was not a happy environment to say the least. I left on an unstable footing, and tripped and fell ALOT along the way, though, after quite some time I regained footing and am where I am today. I had enough and I just ran, given there was what would have been potentially a stable direction, it was extremely emotionally motivated as well, without proper control. I give this credit to staying afloat mainly to Zeus and the Gods above all, but I came along eventually despite complicating much of the progress with my own hands. Of course, sparing many details so this reply is not extreme in length.
I ran in search of independence without a proper plan, though, looking back on quick options that would have given some footing so long as I actually applied myself, there are many paid apprenticeships, and if you have the stable time and place, schooling programs to attend to get you into at least some decent place to start out. I had also had to overcome looking down upon money and luxury as well and very much had felt that manifest at points being without it, and what trouble that can get you in to, on the inside and the outside. More obstacles that I had to overcome ultimately, but better now in both of those worlds.
Something that will get you up and out of where you are, maybe even the general city, or state, province, what have you. Get away from those who will constantly be trying to pull you down and find a different community. Practice silence and reserve yourself until you are properly in private so you can stabilize progression. Remember and practice the 36 Virtues and adhere to the chapter of the Al-Jilwah, these do help lead to the straight, if not most straight path forward and I have noticed High Priest Zevios Metathronos has done a great job of explaining things in regards to these, that is let alone all I have read of his works, not to mention the many I have not yet read. Don't forget the 18 Life Ethics as well.
If the environment is particularly bad, I would recommend to get out of it, even if it means leaving behind what you used to know. This can also detach you from people's lives, minds, and souls from the passing of time as well, so certain negative connections can fade and break with time, especially if paired with active cleansing rituals to cut negative spiritual links from their source, and send the negative energy and curses back. I would not recommend leaving on a whim unless you have a stable go-to to float you while you restructure your life. I would not recommend this over structuring a more stable approach to exiting a bad place to be as you have described.
I have my own stories of rough times I have lived through, and thankfully I am here today with all Brothers and Sisters here, able to participate and hopefully also do some good here in the Temple of Zeus as well. I believe you will have to find a way to run your course as well and beyond, but do your best to do it in the most stable fashion possible. Ensure the emotions are controlled, used to empower what you are doing, not to overpower your actions. Ask questions, establish goals, accept failures and adapt to overcome so you may be successful in attaining your goals. Consider self-preservation here, as you wake and sleep as no one else but your own self every day and night and no one lives life for you directly but yourself.
I would say, this is a physical approach to this, mainly, and would say a variety of spiritual workings could help a lot of this forward as well. But, if you are in a shared household with the folks causing issues, I have found this to be something that plagued me growing up, and doing things like vibrations of Runes and Mantras was not something I could comfortably accomplish with an actively malicious person nearby most times, one who held power in the environment and could convince the others purely in malicious acts. Not having proper privacy is rough. I was the target until I left, and then others felt that terrible energy and thankfully their eyes, at the least, partially opened to what was really going on, despite it being under similar awful circumstances. As for other places I personally could have done these, that time was used getting myself into other situations that needed to be learned from, but again, thankfully, done and learned now in those things. You will hopefully make better choices than I did. I make these recommendations on a general and slightly similar condition that your situation is similar to what I have experienced, but would apply to many others I am sure. I am also sure I could say more, but I feel this is good for now, though I would answer more questions to help you probe out some answers for yourself if you ask. Try and ask in such a way you protect your identity.
I also hope this is not too much, but, either way, I am sincere in this and would give more detail if I could. Just know that life can be better, and what you are experiencing is not the end, only a glimpse of what you must get past to get to the beginning. You can do it Brother, and likely better than I did. Stay strong and hang in there.
HAIL SATYA
HAIL ZEUS