Shameful Sexual hangups when it comes to what to orgasm too

Devilinside wrote:View source

So I tried to hold back in terms of steeling myself but I found that I am really stuck in this lusting phase where a lot, and only, self enjoyment I have stems from it. I can't seem to be able to handle it; I'm going to be doing a freeing the soul working but I'm unsure exactly what to do other than a board statement. I spent so long making up for numbness because only degenerate things ended up being able to allow me to climax.

Any advice? I've notice my habits are also very directed to harm. The scratching of the skin ended up turning it a bit raw in a few places and it made me feel queasy up noticing it. I also directly harmed my own personal life out of this shame. I stopped doing work on myself due to feeling burnt out but than I felt a lotta shame that seems to clash with my mind. Like I noticed in youtube videos the little skips are almost like in some kinda brain wave level trick. It skips when your brain has, at some point in it, hit the skips nearish the same spot to create this remembrance like effect when you focus but it is abusing the short term memory functions. (Personal observation, would like to know if I'm right or not if one wishes to share!)

You can use this affirmation: "I am totally and completely free from any and all guilt, shame, trauma, and blockages to my sexual self in a positive way for me, now and forever."

There's an opportunity for you to do the working this Wednesday on the 29th. Go for 90 days if it's really deep rooted.

I also have to for ending things permanently and freeing the soul, can I start the working today instead? (21/22/23) are all good dates it says on mine.

Devilinside wrote:View source

I also have to for ending things permanently and freeing the soul, can I start the working today instead? (21/22/23) are all good dates it says on mine.

This has to do with the Moon sign. Aquarius is more freeing, whereas Scorpio is more ending, so think over which would have the better impact on your specific goal (from HPS Lydia).

THANK YOU VERY MUCH MY GUARDIAN!

I have done some work for liberation from sexual complexes and have had some success.

I have used the Urüz rune (ideal for this meditation) for 18 vibrations in the sexual chakra for 80 days starting with the Moon in Scorpio on Halloween last year.

I have felt the liberation of energy and greater familiarity that brings pleasure and sweetness to sexuality.

Devilinside wrote:View source

S only degenerate things ended up being able to allow me to climax.

Any advice? I've notice my habits are also very directed to harm.

Those are red flags for - possible - emotional, sexual of physical abuse you may have suffered in previous lives or in your childhood. Or simply heavy christian/islamic programming to repress your sexuality that ingrained so deep in your mind to let you feel guilty, unworthy and hate yourself.

As JG said freeing the soul will be very helpful here.
But I would also dig a bit more on the reasons why you seem willing to harm yourself for wanting to have a sexual life. Do you come from a damaged family or suffered anything bad ? In this case healing may take a bit longer.

Engineered Trasformation wrote:View source

Those are red flags for - possible - emotional, sexual of physical abuse you may have suffered in previous lives or in your childhood. Or simply heavy christian/islamic programming to repress your sexuality that ingrained so deep in your mind to let you feel guilty, unworthy and hate yourself.

As JG said freeing the soul will be very helpful here.
But I would also dig a bit more on the reasons why you seem willing to harm yourself for wanting to have a sexual life. Do you come from a damaged family or suffered anything bad ? In this case healing may take a bit longer.

Yeah I do, lots of negative familial Karma I believe. I want to feel sexual pleasure but the physical sensations I just don't have due to what they due to males in America. I have lots of nothing sensations and it brings an enormous amount of pain and grief. It makes me feel a little insane when trying to deal with it.

Devilinside wrote:View source

Yeah I do, lots of negative familial Karma I believe. I want to feel sexual pleasure but the physical sensations I just don't have due to what they due to males in America. I have lots of nothing sensations and it brings an enormous amount of pain and grief. It makes me feel a little insane when trying to deal with it.

I do not say it's the case; it's possible you suffered heavy trauma involving sexuality or your sense of personal worth (beating, etc.) of which you may have no memories. The mind can repress and temporary cancel memories of traumatic events.
If you feel like going insane, it means you have a strong conflict inside - so different "parts" of your mind fight each other confusing you. I know this by personal experience. So I express my sadness for you facing those kind of problems as it's difficult for "normal" people to understand how deep and invalidating this can be. There are good news anyway: 1. any damage you suffered is NOT your fault and 2. healing is normally possible.

According to your words you unconsciously refuse pleasure. Most likely you think you do not deserve it, or you think pleasure is dangerous - depending on what happened to you.
Understanding the root causes helps to configure meditations correctly. Freeing the soul, Munka - healing emotional body - detaching from chakra offending people ... this can be a long run but it works!

My best advice, is to ask Father Zeus the guidance of a Demon to accompany you in the healing path. Because this is very personal and different for each of us, the Demons know what happened to you while you may be unaware - so it was for me.

Devilinside wrote:View source

So I tried to hold back in terms of steeling myself but I found that I am really stuck in this lusting phase where a lot, and only, self enjoyment I have stems from it. I can't seem to be able to handle it; I'm going to be doing a freeing the soul working but I'm unsure exactly what to do other than a board statement. I spent so long making up for numbness because only degenerate things ended up being able to allow me to climax.

Any advice? I've notice my habits are also very directed to harm. The scratching of the skin ended up turning it a bit raw in a few places and it made me feel queasy up noticing it. I also directly harmed my own personal life out of this shame. I stopped doing work on myself due to feeling burnt out but than I felt a lotta shame that seems to clash with my mind. Like I noticed in youtube videos the little skips are almost like in some kinda brain wave level trick. It skips when your brain has, at some point in it, hit the skips nearish the same spot to create this remembrance like effect when you focus but it is abusing the short term memory functions. (Personal observation, would like to know if I'm right or not if one wishes to share!)

What worked for me was learning to love and rerouting sexual pathways from predominantly lust to predominantly love. I had E.D. when I used to watch porn and felt like something was wrong with me.. now I know I'm fine and love generates a much stronger and consistent erection than lust ever did for me. Lust is when you are focusing on the excitement coming from how your dick feels.. and that will lead to a disappointed partner.

Get a girlfriend, dude. And try to reprogram yourself to love instead of lust. It will take time but you will realize very fast that your efforts are doing something and you will realize you can achieve what I am talking about. I am so glad I don't look at porn anymore.. growing up with the internet around it was very hard to avoid.. now I have a woman I love and pour all of my sexual energy into, instead of random faces and bodies siphoning me..

When you learn to love, sex stops being all about just cumming. It turns into a beautiful act instead of a depraved one.

p.s. you will need an at least somewhat spiritually healthy woman to do this with. Your love should be wanted, appreciated and returned, so you need someone receptive to it.. the gods will help you if you pray to them and ask, and you can help with your own energy/workings.

Good luck. We are all supposed to live beautifully..

-Ave Satanas-