Regarding Elements ( questioning my experience)

Apprentice wrote:

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

When I read that Satan told you to keep your spine straight I probably should've been heeding that as well. I forgot about your message and was repeatedly slouching in posture while meditating and Andras would sharply urge me and has constantly been reminding me to stop slouching in this past week. He was bringing to my attention my heart chakra and my shoulder chakras in which it was made aware to me by the cold stinging sensation of my shoulders (signs of a blocked/sealed chakra) that they're blocked, and by slouching I'm preventing energies from rising and circulating up to my heart chakra and through the rest of the extensions and majors.

I just read your message before my evening meditations and felt an urge to heed this. In retrospect, it makes totally sense.

For the last 2 or 3 years I've had stinging pains in my shoulders where the shoulder chakras would be. Also I've had intermittent sharp sensations like there is a dagger stabbed right between my shoulder blades. This pain can last days. Of course I'm guilty of slouching whenever I work on a computer, meditate or even drive (which I do a lot).

When I was in high school, I remember I once went to a wall and stood straight with my back, heels, shoulders and head touching the wall and made a mental note to keep this athletic, arian posture. I keep this posture whenever I walk but during driving, working on a computer etc. it's hard not to relax.

So today I sat straight as a pencil as I did the Ritual. At one point I felt something I can't describe. I started laughing and crying at the same time. Now I have a sensation of lightness in my chest. Also there's a hint of a slight headache. Is this the aftermath of a released chakra blockage? I feel great.

I just wanted to drop this quick note and also say Thank You, GitM and SioF666.

Something so simple does such wonders, doesn't it? The heart chakra is the chakra of the emotion of love, it is one of it's inner states, when Satan sends his love to us or any of the gods we feel it in the heart chakra. I have found this love to be very healing and Satan helped me free up my wings again with it, still need some work to keep them freed but it's all progress to something better in time, patience is key and Satan is strong with those who practice it.

Love is a very healing emotion and very positive energy, when negativity is released by it and brought forth to surface, it is a huge weight lifted off of, pun intended, your shoulders and the negativity leaves us in the physical manifestation of crying as it surfaces to leave out through the upper chakras. This also happens when, yes, one frees something from their soul and breaks a blockage or 'chain', it's oddly enough the same kind of relief you would get if you actually were physically freed from actual chains that you've been stuck to for so long, I think that's rather interesting to note and that perhaps our soul subconsciously feels more complex details than we're actually aware of. I have cried a lot in this past week but good crying, haha, a lot of healing is being done so it's bound to happen.

The headache is from energies being allowed to flow freely to the upper chakras and the chakras are not used to such energy levels and flows, so this creates pressure and tension in physical response and that's what the headache is. Also I completely understand that slouching is so relaxing but it's definitely just generally not very good. I think it was Andras or someone that suggested to me the idea of using a pillow in the curvature of the back against your chair and then leaning back a bit into it.

I've found this, honestly, more relaxing than slouching granted you get it all right, it's just a little extra support. In any event I'm pretty sure sitting up straight is something one can make a habit out of, I think I recall a time when I was younger when I was oddly determined to always sit straight, and for the longest time it made slouching uncomfortable and just not natural, I found it was a lot more easier and comfortable to sit up straight. Of course over the years I started slouching again but this leads me to believe it can be made into a habit.

Personally I like the pillow method for now.

Apprentice wrote:

For the last 2 or 3 years I've had stinging pains in my shoulders where the shoulder chakras would be. Also I've had intermittent sharp sensations like there is a dagger stabbed right between my shoulder blades. This pain can last days. Of course I'm guilty of slouching whenever I work on a computer, meditate or even drive (which I do a lot).

When I was in high school, I remember I once went to a wall and stood straight with my back, heels, shoulders and head touching the wall and made a mental note to keep this athletic, arian posture. I keep this posture whenever I walk but during driving, working on a computer etc. it's hard not to relax.

So today I sat straight as a pencil as I did the Ritual. At one point I felt something I can't describe. I started laughing and crying at the same time. Now I have a sensation of lightness in my chest. Also there's a hint of a slight headache. Is this the aftermath of a released chakra blockage? I feel great.

I just wanted to drop this quick note and also say Thank You, GitM and SioF666.

Perhaps something like this would help: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B07L41CV8B/ref=ox_sc_act_title_1?smid=A26KQIY0SJ099B&psc=1

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

Zeus throwing down lightning bolts just flashed into my mind. I don't know if I'm being told something specific but whatever it is it seems to involve Air and lightning, or electricity, and when I think about it I feel something in my lower soul (where the harder bindings were placed)

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I just finished answering to Brother Apprentice and I suggest you read the very last thing I said to him. This is now causing my intuition to kick in and suggest something like a pattern.
We're pretty used to visualize light when working with our Souls as (just like Lilith said) "Light is Power", so I'm going to suggest you try something differently, and because you mentioned either your lower Soul having harder bindings as well as seeing Zeus throwing down lightning bolts, I have reason to believe this will work with you.

Like I suggested to Apprentice, you could try and think of your Soul in terms of electricity, not light, for once. Just visualize it as some kind of light 'rod', but picture it only really activating and coming to full life when it becomes sparkly and generating visible electric energy that gets stronger in the lower part where your lower chakras are.
Obviously go slowly on this, as electricity is still a sub element of Air and by no means should be taken lightly, but do focus on it there, feel the gentle 'hum' of distant thunders. And yes, DO REMEMBER to keep your spine straight. By overcharging the lower chakras I believe if you manage to break the bindings even further you WILL NEED a clear passage to the upper chakras in order to avoid the 'clamped water hose' effect and observe more cold stinging nerves where the clamped part is situated.
Also, as this vision you had suggests you need more yellow color, try to visualize that electricity as a surging yellow lightning, not blueish as electricity usually can be seen.
Just focus on it for a while, don't necessarily breathe in any element, this is something that should be already within you so no outside interaction is needed in my opinion. Make it gentle and pleasant and when you get it going and feel it crackling lightly, just keep your senses open and see what happens. Something strongly tells me this will help you healing your lower chakras (and yes, again, this might be the Gods speaking through us to each other).
Have a go and let me know what you notice. Honestly, I think I will do this too after suggesting two others to try it. I've done it just once I think and it felt pleasant and almost refreshing. Maybe it's one of the ways Air people heal themselves? :)

As I'm re-reading where you speak of not feeling the Ritual effects and Andras telling you about the sacral chakra, I tried just being open and feel my lower Soul too. (Note: I'm truly making an effort in trying NOT to slouch while typing, as I usually tend to lean forward.) The surprising result was that after a few seconds I felt the sacral chakra and a little the solar one kind of.. 'popping up' and heating up quickly. Now I wonder if I am already observing effects of what I just suggested you did with the electricity, as I tried to imagine the effects and what actually happens down there that I may not be aware of. That, and I'm feeling also the third eye being a little 'buzzy'. To tell you the truth, Brother, this is the first time in my life that I am fully aware of two different chakras at the same time... (talking to you REALLY helps).

Your temporary 'loss' of the Dragon within you, in my opinion reading your posts and seeing how you talk and explain things, the more I think of it the less I think of it as a loss. To be more clear, over the time I have been part of this forum, for the last 8 months, I have seen in you one of the strongest, most dedicated, fiercely caring and helpful Zevists I've ever spoken to. More than once I did wonder why your name doesn't include a "High Priest" before it, and the last couple of weeks I think I have simply confirmed that tenfold. So I can't really think of you having been much less than what you already are.
True enough, I believe the stress of the current 'world crisis' has been hitting probably everyone's spot, whether they believe 'Covid' will kill them if they remove the mask or they understand eons better than others what is going on and truly realize just how much is at stake here. This year has been extremely stressful to Humans, in some areas this stress has escalated to the point of pushing people to fall in serious depression and suicides have been so many (like Italy, where a man speaking with a megaphone telling people to open their eyes and think if this isn't all just a scam has been arrested AND sedated in public by masked white coats.. straight out of "1984" or "Fahrenheit 451".... some people experienced first hand what communism feels like).
Yet, you've been super helpful to us, to me especially. You never flinched, as far as I can see. If that doesn't make you a Dragon, I don't know what else does. The fact that you have seen them often, thought of them often, observed it as a sign, surely has a meaning, but I don't think in any way that it spells how 'weak' you have been. And sure as Hell, that damn workplace has indeed contaminated you with its shit at some point, so if you feel like demeaning yourself thinking that you haven't been splendid, that you have been anything less than a Dragon, I'd say it's the damn leeches pulling this stunt on you, trying to make you think less of yourself BECAUSE you're already so strong they have no other way of interfering with your crushing advance.
Perhaps I'd think of the Dragon signs in your life more of a praise from the Gods, if you want my opinion. You may not be the most bridging thing that ever lived between Humans and Gods, perhaps, but you're way more close to this power than so many others, mate.
I believe this sign is the Gods telling you "You're a Dragon, well done, keep this up".

"Things have been falling into place little by little for me as I've been putting in effort with the help of Satan and my guardian to better myself and get back up from this mess, because no matter how many times one falls down and crumbles into a pile of ash, I will always remember what rises from ash without fail every single time as per it's very nature. A fiery and courageous phoenix."

That's what I like to hear. :)

Your explanation of how the Demons' office works and how they may refer one to a different Demon if their area of most expertise is another one make a lot of sense indeed. I guess not being so expert myself I can get confused by this.. it comes to mind when I mentally tried to call on Bastet being the topic 'Cats', in a really stressed moment, and Lilith came instead. Only later did I find that Liliths's animals are the Cat and Owl, which made a lot of sense still, but made me wonder about Bastet as she was 'THE One' I thought of regarding cats. Maybe the obvious isn't so obvious sometimes.

And here I am, answering to the most anticipated moment in your reply...

Dude, I'm over the moon right now. Seriously, I know I have had probably NO REASON not to believe Leraje to be my Guardian, and this has been so for over one year now. I found that he was somehow important for me around June 2019 and things have been happening to point out that She was the one. I even started feeling a particular hot energy, always on my left foot, and I'd just know it was her, making herself known. In one month, then, machines started failing without reason left and right in my workplace and I'd just chuckle and think "Another one.. I'm pretty sure it's You by now", but in the end I probably simply feared offending another Demon if I was confirming this to myself and postponed accepting this.. accepting HER as my Guardian, much as I wanted to. And because of my almost zero ability to feel I used to wonder to myself how I could have possibly learned the things she'd have told me. I've been such a fool, especially since I already did sense and notice something. The fear and feeling of inadequacy just got the better of me in the end.

You know? I can't help but suspect that the Gods have lead us both to this exchange of information and hints to help each other also in order for me to be more open and believe you if you told me something like that. In this very moment, I have completely accepted that Leraje is my Guardian Daemon and I couldn't really be happier, nor do I desire someone else to be my Guardian as she feels very familiar and positive, kind and caring to me. It feels like I have known her for a rather long time, but forgot about it and until I get rid of this amnesia... but even so, I still feel very bound to her. I don't even know how else to put it into words right now..

And love? I don't know much about that because, if I return to logic for a moment, I remember I also love other Demons.. but uh... yeah, no.. it's different. It's the love for a kind tutor versus the love for ..someone like a beloved aunt, or something close. Someone VERY familiar. A Mother perhaps? I can't quite put my finger on what kind of love I feel for Leraje, but it's something that doesn't break, that much I can tell you.

Her element and planet make absolute sense to me. I was even born on the day of that planet. Sometime ago, during a research frenzy when I tried to use logic to determine my Guardian I still made a list and noticed how I was naturally more attracted to Goddess with Air element and Mercury as a planet. Even Haures has them, so I thought there was some kind of connection perhaps. I don't know about that exactly, but Leraje definitely strongly sticks out of the group.

"I'm gonna tell you right now... I think you found her."

I know there are no mediators in Zevism, but.. wow. This feels pretty unprecedented. I know you're right. I just have no doubt anymore.

"it does not have to be relationship wise though, love is a flexible emotion."

Brother, if only I could have known about Zevism and Guardian Daemons when I was like 4 or 5, I think I might have found her back then. I say this because I used to feel a lot of love, directed to me, from "Someone". There were times I simply spaced out and pay attention to what I always felt like a completely difference dimension, and I'd feel it. I KNEW someone was doing this, only, not knowing the truth, I didn't know what to make of it and ended up believing I was maybe fantasizing too much, losing myself in a world I wanted to be real.
Hell, now that I know it was and IS real I feel... unbelievably positive. I wonder if it was always Leraje sending me this love, making me feel it. And I wonder if that's why I always found women's 'love' to be such a disappointment when I always compared it to that of the Goddess of Love and Pleasure.
I'm still awestruck here...

"They use their OWN symbology and powers. I think at this point, it's very safe to say, you do know who your guardian demon is and you've subconsciously known this whole time. I'm excited about this as well but probably not as much as you are in reading this."

Can't tell you how much I am excited... do you know how long I've been wanting to find this answer? Many times I even believed I would have died without ever finding out, that I was that bad as a Zevist. What you made me completely realize now changes the game for good.
And, absolutely, the symbology is DEFINITELY something to keep a close eye on. Your example with Andras making you encounter black dogs to make you realize and then stopping completely once you got the meaning of it all sounds incredibly similar to my experience with failing machines and technology. Today I had the last proof as well, just as a confirmation that "Yes, Ghost is right" while a window in my car malfunctioned. The timing is way too perfect, these answers are undeniable.

Brother, I don't think I can ever thank you enough for all the clarity you're bringing in my life. The more I speak with you, the more what I thought had no longer anything to teach me turns upside down and showers me with new, vast and unexpected knowledge. I can only hope some of my insights will prove more useful to you as well.

Speaking of insights, I'll briefly answer here about the 'straightening the spine'.

All you described about the spine creating the new bandhi feels completely legit. I do have this problem and I know it needs urgent addressing, as the habit of slouching can be a very hard one to deter. I don't want nor should expect the Gods to constantly have to remind me about it when it's something so easily solvable, so every time I type now, or sit in a chair, I try to always remind myself to keep the spine straight and flexible. I guess one way to correct this wrong and unhealthy posture would be to pair it to some other habit.. as an Air one, the first that comes to mind is an open posture that allows slower and deeper breathing.

I'm remembering what Brother Apprentice said about his breathing being too 'low' in a way I guess, not needing enough oxygen and taking little breaths compared to what is possibly considered the average. I don't know about his posture but I can only speculate that this could be a common problem among us. Air people slouch? And if so, why? Mmmm.... maybe that's exactly the point here. Air people have naturally too much Air, so the body itself is somehow trying to 'correct' this by assuming a posture that won't allow exaggerated amounts of air to reach inside, could it be?
What you're doing by training your physical body and cardiovascular flow could probably be considered a physical way to equalize the other three elements, or some of them at least, in order to let your body 'Quintess' itself so that a good, open posture that allows more Air element to easily flow in, can be achieved without overcharging one's Air.

That's just a theory though, it's the first and most logical that came to mind in a few seconds of thinking. Hopefully it can cast some light on the slouching problem.

And QUICKLY, another observation...

(It is probably convenient now that I had to close this post before living for work and I'm finishing writing it after hours of testing this...)

I've been focusing on not slouching for most of the day since this morning when I read your other reply. I did mention I felt two of my chakras at the same time... it definitely felt like something was happening and something was at work in fixing the imperfections that appear with a wrong spine posture, BUT at some point I also have had a 'headache'... let me explain briefly: this wasn't 'just a headache'. I clearly felt my third eye flare up and some stronger than normal pressure on chakras on the back of my head. I kept moving at work in the room, shutting metal doors and reopening them trying to determine whether or not this shit was from a 5G tower in the area suddenly being activated... I checked the sky, the birds and insects and everyone looked alright, so I disregarded the 5G as culprit, but it still felt pretty unbearable... I blamed a truck parking in front of the room with its engine on, but I know trucks' noise don't feel like that. This lasted for a while but then lessened to a humming third eye... I still have some pressure in about two hearing chakras in the lateral back of the head but they're nothing to worry about.

This just came and went away in a matter of a few hours before sunset, about maybe 6 hours since I forced myself to straighten the spine while reading your last answer.
Just so you know and are readier for any effect. Do let me know if you experience anything similar. I don't think it's very likely because you seem more in control of yourself and better disciplined of course (I will soon enough increase my daily physical training to a more complete Yoga set, martial arts and Tai Chi), but if my heads up can help you be more prepared I'm glad about that.

SUPER long post, take your time, Brother. And I really want you to know I appreciate your help immensely. Leraje it is then.. :)

HAIL ZEUS!

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

I did however notice the profile picture, that's really incredible detail right there and as an avid artist and lover of artwork I am impressed. Was there any particular reason you chose a chicken?

Completely forgot about this part.
Thanks a lot, I'm glad you appreciated the detail. I'm training to get more realistic textures (but in the end it's more just about creating an illusion for the mind to be tricked into more realism), and I chose a rooster (one of mine) as I didn't want to complicate myself with human form and the typical landscapes.. I'm pretty happy with the feathery effect though, best work I've done.

Next one that I started today is an eagle head. I just find birds very fascinating subjects. :)

HAIL ZEUS!

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

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Modern processed sugar is very nasty and incredibly addictive. You should treat it like a drug, meaning you have to completely remove it from your life. An alcoholic cannot stock their pantry with alcohol, and so on. As long as you can avoid the urge to purchase the item, you have beaten it. If you purchase it and fool yourself into thinking you can "moderate" your use, there is a much greater chance of failure. We are all guilty of some sort of addiction to modern living, so this isn't directed solely towards you. Even I am not innocent.

Such a method sounds strict, but it is also the most effective. You will find your urge for whatever you are blocking will quickly drop as your brain is forced to grasp the new reality surrounding these urges. Regular food items will start to taste sweeter as your brain is no longer hyper-stimulated by processed sugar, and so on. More on sugarExternal ↗ and anecdote on giving up sugarExternal ↗.

I don't know if you realized this or not, but I am sure the sugar consumption contributed to the ulcers by altering the gut flora. In this case, the sugar acted like a prebiotic, fueling the growth of a certain colony(s) out of a healthy proportion. Over time, this resulted in a full blown infection. This is why you were then guided to yogurt, a probiotic, to try and fix this. Interesting that you were guided there and not to a pill-form of probiotic.

For the slouching, I posted a link in this thread to a posture-correction device. I've been looking at them lately. I have one for my lower back, just not my shoulders. I think the one I posted about should be able to correct both upper and lower back. Also, if you use a computer frequently, you should look into a laptop/monitor stand to elevate your setup and avoid slouching. The use of these devices should force your body to adapt and maintain a healthy posture even after you cease using them, in theory.

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I've read through this thread and it has been very informative. I am confused about how my view towards elemental balance should go. It sounds like we are supposed to strive for balance, yet keep our uniqueness, at the same time. For you, it sounds like keep your fire edge, but also try to control it as well.

This has troubled me because lately I've been getting annoyed at myself. My natal chart supports high air and water, but a small amount of fire and earth. The only earth planet is a mutable sign, as well. A lot of times, it feels like I cannot sit still, both physically and mentally, and it has really bothered me because I feel like I know lots of things, but struggle to implement them.

This drove me to inhale 5 breaths of shiny black earth energy and affirm it aiding my self-discipline. My body felt more calm and rigid in the hours after, and my mind felt slowed as well. Later that evening, I read this thread again and saw you guys talking about not losing your self and I did feel that a little bit. Not super strongly, but the extra earth felt unlike my normal nature. Conversely, I did feel like it gave me more staying power, which I also desire.

So the question becomes, how do I obtain a healthy balance for myself? Should I try using ether in the hopes that it will just "fill in the gaps" without altering my elemental composition? I love who I am, but I also get frustrated because I feel like if I was more earth/fire I would be able to accomplish much more in my life, especially with spiritual pursuits.

Apprentice wrote:

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Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

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I was wondering if you two had ever focused on the water element or the colour blue in a long while in full focus. I was thinking it would be a good idea to incorporate that onto and in the soul. It's easy to forget that water and blue are harmonizers, very positive Satanic energies for healing as blue is of Satan which can help enforce bonds in these hard times and cleanse enemy garbage from the soul.

The enemy hates and is repelled by blue if we can recall blue Satanic astral fire; burns them and it feels very negative to them so it's a good form of defense.

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

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Haven't done that in a while actually. But I will, soon. Actually, I think I'll go for HP Zevios's 40 days of power as well, as whenever I did it before I was always too numb and didn't feel... now it's much more possible and easier for me, so I gather it's a good time to try all these things again and see what results I observe.

Perhaps you expect this now, but I have been feeling a difference since accepting Leraje as my Guardian Daemon. Last night, for instance, I stayed up late and at some point I decided to pay attention to my posture and differences between slouching and keeping a straight spine. I distinctly felt the blockage in my lower chakras, between the second and third, in that area at least, as I worked on disrupting them and undoing it. Later I have clearly felt this 'disturbance' move up to the heart chakra, like the obstacle had been pushed upward after applying that 'yellow lightning' I talked to you about. I have only used very little Air so far as I don't want to be tempted to overdo it, but somehow I am managing to understand how this energy behaves. The same day, while driving after an Ritual, I felt activity in my third eye start on its own again and suddenly I 'perceived', instinctively, what I had to do to feel more energy and make it clean, the only way I can describe the sensation is by saying 'it was a tactile feeling', so touch related. Maybe it's just the energy being more free flowing and in doing so easier for me to feel.

The last thing I really noticed a lot were... 'love waves' in my abdomen and heart areas. This was powerful, I can only describe it as "knowing you're in love", no doubt repeated signals from my beautiful Guardian. :)

By the way, something else I have overlooked but that clearly states She's my Guardian Daemon: over the last couple of months her plant grew up in large quantities in my garden, and it's the first time in years I see that plant. There was none before, now it's covering a rather large patch. The signs have been definitely strong. How I managed not to realize or simply accept it was Her... and, there, another 'love wave' just now as a reminder. Looks like She REALLY wants to work with me. I feel super honored.

HAIL ZEUS! Hail Leraje!

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

Something so simple does such wonders, doesn't it? The heart chakra is the chakra of the emotion of love

It did wonders, indeed. Because of deep emotional scars left by my upbringing, I guess I had intentionally closed the heart chakra. I remember wanting to be loved but it didn't happen. Once I even saw in a dream as an adult that I was standing in front of my mom and cried, asking her to love me.
I had previously performed the opening of chakras routine several times but for some reason that didn't do the trick.

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

Of course over the years I started slouching again

Slouching feels like relaxing, chilling out... if you don't factor in the anatomical-physical-energetical aspect of it. I always used to lean back into the chair and, from that position, keep my eyes level while working on a computer. My problem is that I'm over 6 ft tall but all the furniture is made for your average person, meaning the desks are too low, height adjustment of computer screens is very limited etc.
Doing so for years didn't end well, I was diagnosed with scoliosis, rotational defects etc. Enter a personal trainer and weightlifting. After a CT scan and having consulted the neurologist, me and the trainer put together a training plan. I made sure the trainer wasn't some shady roid bruh. He is a university graduate (physical culture), a natural bodybuilder and has won several awards. I lifted weights almost religiously for 3 years and it worked miracles. My back muscles are way stronger now. I once picked up a dishwasher and gave it to my friend over an obstacle, with straight hands.

Blitzkreig wrote:

Perhaps something like this would help

Yup. The last posture is what I achieved after having lifted weights for some time. You just can't do a heavy sumo deadlift with a wrong posture. The same goes for basically every exercise involving some serious weights.

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

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I don't know what the blockage-rising sensation for you was, but I do know that energies flow upwards circulating out of our crown chakra, the circulation can take things with it as something perhaps detaches and flows with it, either to exit if it's a blockage or negative energy, etc out from the crown chakra.

Leaning forward to let your head hang down allows negative energies to be drained out from the crown chakra. I remember a long time ago while doing a cleansing I felt the need/urge to lean forward and do that and I could feel positive energy pushing out the negative energy in circulation to leave in a better flow out of me from my crown chakra, 'spilling out' from my soul onto the floor essentially. About a week or so later I then found out on the main website that Pythia actually suggested this as, if I remember correctly, she stated Satan shared with her this motion, so it actually is a real thing that helps and I ended up doing this in either I was urged by Satan or one of the gods or it just felt right realizing it's potential before finding it as an actual valid thing written on our site.

Perhaps you could try that to better just positively allow any negativity and such to drain out of you.

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

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I don't know what real reasoning for this is yet if it's just an in the moment mood thing lately or if I've just been tired and exhausted, though I feel great right now so maybe not, but if you haven't noticed my more recent posts to you being very short, I don't really feel that strong desire or urge to thoroughly explain anything more to you and such and to answer your questions and point things out.

I think I've maybe told you everything you needed to know for now... ? I don't know, maybe this'll change in a few days or another week or until next time you need to know something, but I feel like that feeling one would get like "My work here is done", that's the best way I can describe it and to move onto others as you've been my primary focus for literally a whole week, I've maybe answered one other question to one other Satanic here on the forum since. I don't see anything else I can say after bringing to light the Larajie thing.

It has been very enjoyable though and I'm glad I answered and clarified so much to you. But what I can say in a realistic sense is try not to get too 'paranoid' about everything as a sign or as something one of the gods might be doing or even the enemy. Logic and reasonability is needed to not screw yourself over with confusions and uncertainties and making yourself afraid or worried for nothing, I know this very personally (and nightmarishly dreadful) from experience.

You may have unintentionally binded your spiritual perception with Earth but this does not exactly mean you are grounded. Remember I said to use the Air for the binding, freeing yourself from the binding will automatically make you feel more "Air-Free". For actual grounded logic don't use Earth, just turn your attention and focus to the physical material plane outside of your head a bit more often instead of perceiving everything all the time from a projection out from within your head.

This also reduces headaches.

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

Being the insensitive that I am to energy, I expected the ToZ' recommendation on using only a handful of breaths when absorbing elements (for the first times especially) not to give me much of an energy buzz, yet I started very slow in order to do things right, as suggested on the website.

When I felt nothing I waited for 12/24 hours (after each Element) and still nothing. This went on for years before I'd feel more inspired, one particular night, to try again and feel and absorb Earth element.

(Note: I think it's important to mention that I wasn't really planning to, but I suddenly 'knew' I was going to succeed with this, so I gave it a shot, expecting it not to work, as usual.)

For the first time in forever, I felt a strong energy, almost as if orbs of gravity pushed my body down on my bed, it was intense but almost pleasant. Certainly pleasant to know that I could manage to feel energy.
The morning after and for the next two weeks I had VERY sore neck and shoulders. Could barely move without sharp muscle pain, but I was also glad SOME energy finally had had an effect on me.

I tried that again later, ready to face severe muscle pain as the price to pay for making sure I'd feel it, but it never felt like that anymore. I did notice an increase in my already great fascination with stones and crystals, though.

Some other time, after I had invoked Earth, I'd perform heavy physical tasks without feeling any fatigue at all, feeling stronger and healthier. Maybe the definition would be "like a tree", if that makes any sense.

I studied all I could about the Elements and related abilities (as the topic always stimulated my curiosity above all other magic), but only now I am questioning myself before something that could probably be an easy answer for a more seasoned Zevism.

IF in order to attack someone with an Element we have to use the Element they have the least tolerance for (like for example 'Fire element on a Fire/Type A person)... does that mean that my strong muscle pain after Earth absorption was a consequence of my 'being an Earth type of person'?

And if that's true... Since I no longer feel any pain but strength after absorbing a lot of Earth element, does that mean that I have somehow restored that Earth/Air balance?

I know it's probably an easy one for you guys, but I think I very much needed to ask this here.

HAIL ZEUS!

PS. I've been using Earth lately (instead of Fire) to stimulate my chakras and opening them and I felt an unusual but notable third eye tingle. Almost like it had been 'switched on', like a button. Does that mean I'm doing things right in your opinion?

I didn't really when energy till I Started doing the AUM's into the chakras.

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

Being the insensitive that I am to energy, I expected the ToZ' recommendation on using only a handful of breaths when absorbing elements (for the first times especially) not to give me much of an energy buzz, yet I started very slow in order to do things right, as suggested on the website.

When I felt nothing I waited for 12/24 hours (after each Element) and still nothing. This went on for years before I'd feel more inspired, one particular night, to try again and feel and absorb Earth element.

(Note: I think it's important to mention that I wasn't really planning to, but I suddenly 'knew' I was going to succeed with this, so I gave it a shot, expecting it not to work, as usual.)

For the first time in forever, I felt a strong energy, almost as if orbs of gravity pushed my body down on my bed, it was intense but almost pleasant. Certainly pleasant to know that I could manage to feel energy.
The morning after and for the next two weeks I had VERY sore neck and shoulders. Could barely move without sharp muscle pain, but I was also glad SOME energy finally had had an effect on me.

I tried that again later, ready to face severe muscle pain as the price to pay for making sure I'd feel it, but it never felt like that anymore. I did notice an increase in my already great fascination with stones and crystals, though.

Some other time, after I had invoked Earth, I'd perform heavy physical tasks without feeling any fatigue at all, feeling stronger and healthier. Maybe the definition would be "like a tree", if that makes any sense.

I studied all I could about the Elements and related abilities (as the topic always stimulated my curiosity above all other magic), but only now I am questioning myself before something that could probably be an easy answer for a more seasoned Zevism.

IF in order to attack someone with an Element we have to use the Element they have the least tolerance for (like for example 'Fire element on a Fire/Type A person)... does that mean that my strong muscle pain after Earth absorption was a consequence of my 'being an Earth type of person'?

And if that's true... Since I no longer feel any pain but strength after absorbing a lot of Earth element, does that mean that I have somehow restored that Earth/Air balance?

I know it's probably an easy one for you guys, but I think I very much needed to ask this here.

HAIL ZEUS!

PS. I've been using Earth lately (instead of Fire) to stimulate my chakras and opening them and I felt an unusual but notable third eye tingle. Almost like it had been 'switched on', like a button. Does that mean I'm doing things right in your opinion?

As an edit to my post.

I didn't really FEEL energy, Until I started using AUM's in the chakras.

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

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Been meaning to write you earlier, sorry for the late.

I don't know much about the stance you described helping in 'pouring' the negative energies out of the crown chakra, but the pull on the back definitely feel nice, stretching and relaxing, easing the flow. I do have to get back to my yoga soon as with the current time I only use it so much, but I expect promising results now that I have learned and realized a few things in forever, but back can certainly use the physical benefits to let the energy flow increase and heal me.

As for old blockages being detached and rising, I'm sure something is happening because I noticed a clear 'improvement' in a certain area.. sex related, to put it in a few words. Remember the Earth element used as a way to develop astral touch sense that we were talking about? I have been experiencing something ..kinda similar, like a "sight-that-leads-to-knowing-the-touch-of-something/someone" synesthesia type of thing. I'm hoping this will prove to be one of the shortcuts leading to my Succubus, when I'll be readier.
The other thing, which I have to mention for the sake of my research and perhaps helping you or others with one more hint, ever since learning and accepting what I've been suspecting for a while, that I knew the identity of my Guardian Daemon and wouldn't want to confirm it to myself once and for all, I have also been noticing an increase in orgasm quality. Don't really know how to describe it, but I guess I'm going to cover it by stating that they're less physical and more ..something else, astral, perhaps, spiritual then.
Needless to say, perhaps too, I have been seeing clear signs from Leraje, even old signs that have been super clear in confirming She's my Guardian.

So, all in all, I've never felt this confident in myself. :)

HAIL ZEUS!

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

Apprentice wrote:

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Nearly missed these posts, sometimes too many replies pop up together and ...anyway.

Really felt I had to confirm this emotional reaction, Apprentice, as I get it too sometimes. Not always, but the inevitable cry (the kind that you just can't hold in) I can definitely relate to. And I did suspect it had strongly to do with the hearth chakra.

Not the heart chakra 'getting activated' per se, but more like "the heart chakra getting energy passing through it".. meaning, since this only happens more naturally SOMEtimes, it very probably depends in great part by the posture during meditation.

I remember the third day of my first '40 days of power' training, I was at the Void meditation part and was trying my best to relax and do it as diligently as I could when I had this moment in which my mind felt MUCH more free than any other time I had tried it before. And I did think the different posture was responsible for it, but I was leaning back in a chair that allows much more relax than sitting up with the back straight. I guess the mere fact that I didn't have to care about 'falling' back if I managed to lower my brain waves enough helped in making me get to a faster/more effective trance state, making 'leaning back on something' a good technique to use other times. Mind you, it didn't ALWAYS get me brilliant results.. if anything they're pretty rare.

The two main reasons, however, for which I don't like to use this method (leaning back on something soft) are that 1) if you're at the end of the day this can easily lead to sleep and losing the trance window, and 2) I believe that one should be perfectly able to put himself/herself in a trance even somewhere uncomfortable, having no pillows or beds, not limiting oneself to a physical luxury.

Another thing I want to add, that may be more related to this topic than I realize right now, is that I think the "Corpse stance" in Hatha Yoga is the most difficult one of all.. even if it looks like the easiest to most people. The Corpse stance, from what I gathered studying it, allows for a level of relaxation unlike any other time, not even our daily sleeping postures, it involves working on each and every part of the body until it has made to be at its most relaxed possible, reducing tension to the max and not developing stiffness.
The "apex" of this relaxation I have realized to be the, probably, last step of this stance.. "releasing the brain" so it falls against the inner back of the skull. When I read it the first time I felt like laughing, but I quickly realized how serious this was and "how much nothing(ness) one could achieve".

When I got a good Yoga routine going I did like 20 stances in a day, but never included this particular one. Will do it this time. I hope reminding you of this can help you Brothers with your back problems and stances, didn't feel like I would skip telling you as it's probably important.

HAIL ZEUS!

PS. Sorry if I again fucked up the "quoting" thing.. I'll never get this forum thingy right. :P

Blitzkreig wrote:

I love who I am, but I also get frustrated because I feel like if I was more earth/fire I would be able to accomplish much more in my life, especially with spiritual pursuits.

I wouldn't worry about "losing ones self" so much. What do I mean by that? Your life changes you basically every day, you learn, experience etc. Then there are unfortunate events and dramas. If this process is left totally unmanaged like normies usually do, one can develop a very bitter and disappointed personality.
How you perceive yourself inside your body, in your life in general is in addition to your soul and astrological chart also determined by the sum of your experiences during this reincarnation. I can't see anything wrong if one wants to change that. Take for example someone who doesn't have much money/self confidence etc. in his/her life. You do your homework, discover the bottlenecks (potential problems in your chart, previous hangups, laziness, lack of education etc) and based on the material gathered you can draw up a plan to help the situation. Stick to the plan, do the workings, have patience, hustle in the real world and voilà, you just made yourself a bit more prosperous/self confident etc.
You see, you change yourself every day. Invoking Elements does the same. You change the balance of Elements in your soul. Just don't overdo them to avoid bindings/depression etc. Stick to the suggested limits and meditate on yourself afterwards. Give yourself some days or even weeks between sessions to let the new balance settle in. See what happens.

This is only my uneducated opinion. I'm not psychically open. Maybe someone else can chime in?

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

I was wondering if you two had ever focused on the water element or the colour blue in a long while in full focus.

Do you mean full focus with a void mind and for how long approx.?

Henu the Great wrote:

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I know, Brother, can't wait to see that day.

Something else that's seriously angering me is that, in their attempt to push even more the borg mind, they're using the ignorant and corrupted in order to promote things like animal sacrifices. YouTube is what I'm referring to, mostly of course.

It was perhaps always bad, but lately it seems even worse.. people 'challenging' others to injure and kill more animals, even their own, as a mean to get 'views'.

This is so seriously fucked up...

So fucked up that I am starting to understand why Lilith has let me know She's close to me. She is a protector of animals, not just women in childbirth and children. Animals are extremely sacred to Her, and because I know She knows I feel the same about them I admire Her even more now.

I can't fathom how it's possible for some monsters to feel NOTHING towards animals and cause so much pain without the slightest guilt.
But these 'people', who I KNOW are not of Satan, I really want to destroy.
I wish I could force their heart and throat chakras to constantly tune to the pain they caused and know they can't escape it anymore.

Today I have been wondering about the power of my Rituals and felt the need to focus even more on each letter, strongly feeling the letter being destroyed, turned to nothingness, powerless.

I should probably make a standalone post about it, but I sincerely hope everyone is putting as much effort as they can in their daily Rituals, not as much in amount of Rituals as in degree of unwavering intention and power, not assuming the repetition of a letter for 9 times will be equally as powerful as 9 times reps while fully concentrated, willing for the damn letters to be dissipated into nothing, feeling them being completely and permanently depowered.

HAIL ZEUS!

Apprentice wrote:

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

I was wondering if you two had ever focused on the water element or the colour blue in a long while in full focus.

Do you mean full focus with a void mind and for how long approx.?

Just general meditation, casual.

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

I know, Brother, it gets so unnerving.

Actually no, not anymore. I went through a period of anxiety when this whole circus started. I even got a mild cold working my ass off in conditions with large temperature differences in addition to this anxiety. At one moment you are all hot and sweaty, open the zipper on your coat and the next moment you get a cold wind against your chest.
However, I do remember clearly that when the emergency was declared, I was told in my mind that you don't need to worry.

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

I used to go home from work half depressed after being laughed at by complete fools, knowing they're just not ever going to get it.

I guess we both should stop misplacing our compassion and caringness. I still care about some people who seem partly awake but even they have their own limitations/blockages. Although lonely, life is much easier when you are in full stealth mode.

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

I finally have accepted/found my Guardian Daemon, something that now makes complete and perfect sense in hindsight, recognizing Her signs and attempts to reveal Herself to me.

I'm happy for your success. I'm yet to find mine. Today, after reading your last reply to me, I felt that the situation is about to change in that regard.

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

And Brother... if you ask me I'd say someone VERY involved with electricity and lightning specifically has been protecting you for a while. These experiences you had with lightning don't sound to me like 'coincidental' at all... it feels more like a Demon who has a talent for storms to have been watching over you, and possibly giving you all kinds of hints for you to notice them and find out their name (if you don't know who your Guardian is).

What I didn't tell you is that when that powerful lightning struck near that cabin of ours, there was a small night lamp on the floor. The foot of that lamp was made out of approx. 6 mm chromed steel rod, bent like a perfect circle. The small bulb of that lamp together with the socket flew into a bed I was laying in during the storm. The foot of that lamp cut out a perfectly round piece of plywood that was covering the floor. It looked like a laser cut. The charge hit my parent in the leg, jumped around the cables that were on the floor, finally finding a way out into the cellar cable. That light bulb in my bed... Was it a message, already back then when I was just a kid?
The peculiar thing is, I don't feel threatened in the presence of a lightning storm. Am I a bit afraid in the common sense? Yes - after all we are talking about a power so ineffable it can bake you way past 'well done' in a matter of split second.
I haven't checked yet to feel who ‎is closer and who's not. I have skimmed the lists of Daemons many times. At first glance I don't see anyone involved with electricity. According to the lists in ToZ, Zeus and Satan are different beings. You see, I'm also cautious not to become delusional so I really can't say yet. OTOH, maybe I'm just being blind to obvious signs.

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

I feel you may very well have made that extra step, where your inner energy, your Soul, has more to give through your body and physical efforts

And yet I'm still wondering what that would be what I have to give to this world. Maybe I'm still in the 'making of' phase.

To wrap this up I'll give you a bit of listening. I found this track many years back and still love it. It plays on the loop when I'm working on a computer and need to concentrate.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=46hSmJhXPyIExternal ↗

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

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Um hi brother I just got a message from Lerajie. Whilst thinking of her, hopefully I’m not wrong...
She said that your doing good with your advancements, and you need not try harder. Don’t worry or get anxious your going in the right direction. Also If your in some kind of trouble she said you need to “buy time.”