Regarding Elements ( questioning my experience)

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

Ice is a good element to tune into when trying to still the mind. It is ruled by Saturn and is the element used by the ISA rune as ISA literally translates to "Ice". It mimics the karmic energies of the Winter season in the 'slowing' of everything around it including 'time'. Things grow still, there's a silence in the air, like chaotic waters slowing to a frozen standstill. This is how it calms and stills the mind and it helps with void meditation.

Ice brings calm to chaos in a matter of a controlled binding where it actually 'freezes' motion and action, thus stilling and binding wild energies as if they were being frozen over like a river, but as ChaosBringer666 said just like the ISA rune too much of it causes one to be rather dull as it can actually slow and 'freeze over' your general thoughts and mind more than you necessarily need. If you start having very slow responses, reflexes and reactions to things around you or if you even find it difficult to think well enough to solve something like easy mathematics or even a crossword puzzle under a time limit, then there's too much ice. Since ice works like a binding as it is an element of control through frozen stillness, it can be removed from the mind and soul and broken like any other binding with runes like Ansuz. So if you ever get too much of it then that's how you can free yourself from the dullness, along with some fire element.

To tune into the element of Ice you do not need to invoke it or directly breathe it in, in fact from my personal experiences I would advise against this as it is far too effective if you do it properly. Ice is supposed to work slowly and calmly as it gradually 'freezes over'. I suggest just visualizing the element, look into your mind and 'see' and 'feel' the cold and stillness of a frozen lake, or even icicles hanging off of a tree or a building glinting from the sun, just turn your attention to their frozen stillness and quietness like the silence of snow flakes on a windless night. Passively and gently just allow your mind to envelop into this positive and peaceful focus as you sit quietly or lay down, try to feel yourself in the scene and let it calm you.

Take as long as you feel you need for it to take effect in moderation, that's all you need to do. Ice is one of my favourite elements for it's grounding properties of self-control and the quietness it brings, it is a sub-element of Water just like electricity is a sub-element of Air. So long as it's not too cold, the ice element is the reason why we sleep better when we're cooled or in a subtly chilled room; The cold of the ice element brings calm, peace of quiet and stillness to the mind and soul, enabling us to relax enough to rest.

It is said that in Winter, everything is asleep.

Ghost, you are as always a HUGE help in this forum.

I've been feeling attracted to Ice element most of my life, this is why most of it I have thought my dominant element to be Water, before I knew it was Air.
To be completely honest, I think I never went as far as to venture inside Ice much because I felt I was being too 'extreme' with elementalism. I've also always considered cryokinesis one of the most interesting and possibly useful choices when training oneself to obtain a more physical influence over the material world. Never really trained this as much as my ability to stand Fire element either, and after I have begun feeling outside cold as somewhat painful (while Fire meditating) I decided Ice was off the table, but part of me strongly still lingered towards it, postponing it for a future time though.

Your explanation of the ISA Rune sounds absolutely perfect, and I strongly agree with the cold allowing for better sleep and in my experience better meditation too as it somehow cools the body down faster, making it more still and receptive to non physical stimuli and the astral. This is why often I have slept on top of the blanket, not under. It feels just more relaxing.

This information was really motivating, and I have reason to believe I have had more than enough signs lately pointing me to Ice because I'm probably ready for this now.

This is definitely so very interesting. I'll let you know what I discover with this technique. And I have reason to believe I won't get very dull with this either, partially because I've absorbed enough Water, Ice and cold back in the day to be more acquainted and because in my job I am often in chilled/frozen rooms and don't have a problem with it at all. Actually it's quite pleasant. The only kind of cold I don't really like is wet as it 'shocks' my skin, and being Air I suppose this relates to my electrical 'hate' of water lol.. if that makes sense, I guess. It's always fun to practice with elements though, and a lot to learn from.

Much appreciated, Brother.

HAIL ZEUS!

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

ChaosBringer666 wrote:

Perhaps you should try the isa rune, I find just 11 vibrations works well to calm the mind it is also technically a water rune.

Ice brings calm to chaos in a matter of a controlled binding where it actually 'freezes' motion and action, thus stilling and binding wild energies as if they were being frozen over like a river

Thank you both so much. This is pure gold to me.

ChaosBringer666 wrote:

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After reading yours and Ghost's messages I decided to give it a try. I guess my mistake here is that I often tended to think of the elements in a kinda materialistic display, and in doing so I fail to see how else they would be able to help me.

The ISA Rune seems more promising now, I will definitely give it a try and see if I don't silence my mind enough to accomplish a good stillness and Void meditate.

Thanks for the answer, I guess I just needed to see things under a different view. :)

HAIL ZEUS!

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

After reading yours and Ghost's messages I decided to give it a try. I guess my mistake here is that I often tended to think of the elements in a kinda materialistic display, and in doing so I fail to see how else they would be able to help me.

The ISA Rune seems more promising now, I will definitely give it a try and see if I don't silence my mind enough to accomplish a good stillness and Void meditate.

Thanks for the answer, I guess I just needed to see things under a different view. :)

HAIL ZEUS!

My void meditation quality increased when I started using dhyana mudra while voiding.

Please try it out.

Henu the Great wrote:

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How do i vizizle the muddra i new i no undrestand...

Pfahahaha, sorry couldn't resist.

It's been a while since I've used mudras, can you link me a page? Can't find it on the main meditation pages write now. I used them last time I did the whole 40 days power training but don't remember the names for each of them.

Hopefully it'll help. I can tell the Ice (ISA) is making me more disciplined, my mind wonders less I must say. Have been seeing Father's sigil while calming my mind too, almost in an 'insisting' way, like Satan wants to make sure he's present. :)

A couple weeks ago I was distressed because of problems with my pets and saw Hathor's "horns", the cow horns with the Sun between them. Lilith seems to really value animals, more than I thought she would. Not really sure about how many wives Satan's has and who's the favorite one after reading some contrasting posts here before, but she's definitely wonderful, kind and strong. This is the second time she makes contact with me in a clear way out of the blue (as I know we don't summon her but She comes to us on her own).

Thanks for the help, I'll make sure to save all the mudras with names when I can. Got the entire ToZ saved on files several times just in case.

HAIL ZEUS!

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

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https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=29162&p=129740&#p129131

Henu the Great wrote:

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I remember that one, really didn't recall the name though. Many thanks, saved the whole page as PDF so I won't have problems finding it again. :)

HAIL ZEUS!

Henu the Great wrote:

https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=29162&p=129740&#p129131

Very helpful Henu, thank you.

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

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Here's something I felt the need to tell you in particular.

Lately I had been dealing with bindings on my lower chakras and yesterday on my way to work I had my attention brought to a bunch of yellow flowers. I felt drawn to the colour and ended up tuning into it specifically.

I felt this strange relieving of pressure where my solar chakra is as I focused on the yellow colour of the flowers, I started to wonder why. Yellow energy has it's own implications like all other colours and I knew I had a binding there as the enemy's been trying to really suffocate the masculine energies that enable control over my psychic abilities since they are my strongest trait, trying to make them out of control and what have you, but this didn't prevent me from intuitively examining this feeling from the colour yellow.

I intuitively looked into this feeling of released pressure, like something was lifting off of my solar chakra and in examining it on the astral I found out that it was actually the binding there that was softening and sifting away from the chakra as I was focusing the yellow colour into it. I was so confused because yellow is of the Air element, and the last thing I need in my soul is the Air element, but I realized it wasn't affecting my actual soul itself, nor was it affecting the chakra, it was affecting the binding alone itself.

This still had me confused until I looked deeper in to try and get the astral to tell me why. The answer I got was remembering that bindings, control, discipline, confinement, containment, restriction, these are all things ruled by the Earth element, and upon using Air which is the direct counter to Earth it was reversing the binding energies and removing them. Now mind you, I've no experience with the Air element, and when I tried to use the element itself on the binding, I couldn't properly grasp the skill in doing so, it worked far better for me in just passively psychically tuning to the colour yellow.

However you work very well with elements and I honestly was given the urge by "something else" to tell you very specifically because the first thing I thought out of no where when I reached this conclusion was "Satan_is_our_Father666 needs to know this." I believe this is valuable knowledge for you to have in dealing with any bindings on your soul or chakras.

I don't believe there's any coincidence that these things going on between me and you in regards to helping one another and saying very convenient things to each other is a mere accident. I think we help each other quite well regardless, you're able to discover and experiment in what kind of reactions and means the use of an element can be utilized and I can be able to tell you why, how and where else this can be applied as well as what is actually true about it. Elements are distinct from the ether element which is what enables intuitive understanding, when working with a particular element, your tuning of the ether is overruled because the ether IS an element, but you're focusing on an element completely aside from it in tuning so the focus shifts away from the ether to that element.

This could explain why I struggle so much in using my intuition to understand what an element can do for me other than what I logically read and understand in spiritual factors and functions themselves, but I can't actually 'feel' or 'see' them like I can other forms of astral matter, because the element puts the ether element out of focus. The ether is what enables me to use intuition in the first place, I'm not able to 'see' them without the ether. If I try to apply the ether to the element to understand it, then the ether overrules the other element and then I can't even see the element I'm trying to understand.

However you're able to understand the 4 primary elements through your experimentation and personal studies. I might not be able to understand the 4 elements in trying to look at them myself directly, but I can understand them in the ways you describe in your experiences as well as the why's and hows. And on the other end you implied you struggle greatly with the ether element, you struggle to grasp or understand it, but I understand it very well and am able to tell you what you're struggling to comprehend or know.

This benefits the both of us in filling in the gaps of our understanding based upon our natural abilities and where we fall short. This is literally the whole 'harmony' factor of working as a team/family going on right here. This is why one person cannot do things alone and why teamwork is so stressed by the gods, there are other people with abilities and knowledge that, according to your soul composition, you may not be very good at or may not have as your specialty or office essentially, but they can help you grasp and understand it from themselves and vice versa. It's like puzzle pieces filling in each others gaps to make the whole function work as a complete system where instead of being stuck at 50% potential and knowledge you get the 100%.

If I ever need help in understanding an element, I will for sure be coming to you. Expand your knowledge, but remember moderation, like I said, too much of a good thing isn't always a good thing.

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

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Dude.. wow.
I was thinking just yesterday about having to work more on my lower chakras as I've been spending some time now using Runes and mantras on the upper ones. I am managing (after one or two Rituals as well usually) to feel my astral ears on the sides and back of the head (this thanks to MUNka, TH, and V vibrations mostly), but with all the latest decisions about the grey infested ex I was beginning to think I am being influenced to a slight degree, so I wanted to move to something more masculine and less receiving, like the first three chakras.

Also, and this is where it gets scary accurate to the point of telepathic bond, I was looking at pictures on my phone yesterday looking for ideas on what to draw, and scrolling to the next in the Plants folder I had to stop and look several times at very brightly colored Sunflowers. Yellow like the Solar chakra, beautiful and proud, I thought "why am I suddenly so attracted by them?" Had to go back and forth for a few minutes just to satisfy my need to see them. And today you tell me this.

I don't know about Air being the case here.
Whenever I work with the Elements I visualize myself surrounded with the Element itself and absorbing it into my chakras, paying attention to reaction on my body or ways to tell if I'm reaching any result or effect that I should keep in check.
The fact that you thought of Air probably means you had to mingle with it to remove those bindings on your Solar chakra, especially being the intuitive one you are it would surprise me if this weren't the case, especially since you noticed it working and relieving the chakra itself, being obviously very good news.

In my case, the first thing that came to mind when I read the part where you told me about the yellow flowers was the actual colour. It's definitely been a while since I read about "How to use color" in the Meditation page (I think it's there) and it always SEEMED like an elementary thing (note: ELEMENTary.. no pun) to learn but it felt like something more advanced to me, something that I might have wanted to try but that I had to definitely come back to later, when I had become more experienced and savvy.
I had a very good impression earlier when I stopped from reading your post and visualized the powerful yellow colour. It didn't just feel like a colour, but like something a lot more vibrant and powerful. Almost like SOUND itself.
It could be that this hint from you (and very likely the Gods) was meant to let me know that I'm finally ready for this, so that I would try it again and see where I get to. I do feel I need a little break from the Elements and learn how to deal with my own energy for once, not relying on strong energy from elsewhere a some kind of 'drug' that lets me feel some effect. I do need to heed Father's advice on 'straightening my spine' and 'focusing on myself'. You addition of colour in my training will definitely ease my mind from worrying about not having anything other than my own self to focus on, as I have indeed noticed sometimes how colours do help in meditation. I just need to learn this all over and review any lesson I had no eyes to see.

As for Earth as the binding one, I'm thinking of this as a game of opposites. Perhaps you have to use Earth just to make yourself aware of your bindings, so that you can later deal with them with Air or yellow colour or whatever you feel you should give a shot to.
Knowing Elements, this is probably a more logical reason for which you went for something that belongs to Air this time.. makes any sense?

However you work very well with elements and I honestly was given the urge by "something else" to tell you very specifically because the first thing I thought out of no where when I reached this conclusion was "Satan_is_our_Father666 needs to know this." I believe this is valuable knowledge for you to have in dealing with any bindings on your soul or chakras.

I forgot to tell you about something I really wanted to add yesterday (and once again I have little time so I must keep this short).

Have you ever mixed the Ritual with breathing techniques?
I discovered not too long ago (made a post about it somewhere, not sure if you read that) that a particular way to breath when you speak each letter in the Ritual produces a noticeable 'physical' reaction. I think the most similar one to describe how this works is the Fire Breath.
Basically, you only use one breath for each letter, sit straight (I found that sitting normally, NOT with your legs crossed, works best). At the moment of exhale you might want to slightly exaggerate expelling your breath as you speak the letter, this is easily done by using your abs as in the Fire Breath breathing technique, contracting them at the moment of the exhale/speaking the letter. Also, you will probably feel inclined to apply the Muhla Bandha (I can never spell this one right lol), especially at the moment of the exhale. The abs pushing the breath out faster will make you apply the second Bandha and this is were you will notice something physical.
When you do this, I think even if you don't want to you WILL notice some energy working in your perineum area. Won't lie, Brother, this feel sexual and you could end up 'moaning' the letters.

I find this works better than having to speak x9 letters with one breath and then catching your breath again, but it can make you tired quickly in my opinion, so go easy on this.
I hope this will be of use to you, it could probably help with feeling the Earth.

I do believe we have a good advantage working together on each other's gaps and lacking skills. I keep saving your posts as I believe they will reveal more than I'm currently capable of understanding.
I have a very good feeling on using Colour now. Especially Sunflower yellow. :)

Take care, Brother.

HAIL ZEUS!

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

This could explain why I struggle so much in using my intuition to understand what an element can do for me other than what I logically read and understand in spiritual factors and functions themselves, but I can't actually 'feel' or 'see' them like I can other forms of astral matter, because the element puts the ether element out of focus. The ether is what enables me to use intuition in the first place, I'm not able to 'see' them without the ether. If I try to apply the ether to the element to understand it, then the ether overrules the other element and then I can't even see the element I'm trying to understand.

Instead of using ether, which has the limits you mention, perhaps try using runes like Logr or Dagaz to boost your intuitive ability. It might take longer than simply invoking an element, but perhaps this could be mitigated by affirming the runes are aiding you to intuitively understand a specific element or concept. I don't have personal experience with this, it is just something I thought about when I was looking at the rune page.

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

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Very interesting.

In truth you probably may have picked up on my own focus upon you through the astral in telling you or drawing you to yellow flowers and the colour, whether it happened presently or manifested later on afterwords (likely the case) it was probably still a form of telepathy. I do have strong psychic chakras and centres and have had moments of pure raw intent (electrokinesis and cryokinesis) that conjured very powerfully in my desire. My strong desire in wanting to tell you probably manifested in projecting onto the astral to actually 'tell' you, hence telepathy but not real telepathy. I wanted strongly for you to see something, so I probably programmed the astral with my intent and desire to make you see it. But it was probably the gods that enabled me to see the colour yellow first and make the discovery of energy and the Air element which then in turn made me want to tell you.

And I know you're uncertain about the Air element breaking blockages like I said it would but this is legit how it is with the Earth element of which does key into the factors of bindings, if you have a blockage or binding, you should try using the Air element on it, but if you feel you want to work with colours I'm in no way telling you not to. I'm only clarifying that what I said is only true because don't you notice that everything in this universe has an opposite energy to it? Earth counters Air and vice versa, Fire counters Water and vice versa, male energies vs female energies, sun vs moon, logic vs emotion, astral vs physical, red energy vs blue energy, Jupiter vs Saturn, Mars vs Venus, higher vs lower, positive vs negative, happiness vs sadness, fear vs confidence, anger vs calm, chaos vs order, entrapment vs freedom.

Our universe is built on the very foundation of duality. Every single form of energy is not in fact separate things of their own, they are all forces that reside on a single scale with two polarities of vibrational energies that are opposite to one another in their effects and influences. The higher vibrations (positive, white magic, happiness, joy, safety, protection, beneficial) and the lower vibrations (negative, black magic, harm, suffering, misery, despair, parasitic). Every single thing in this universe, no matter what it is, and I sincerely mean that to the most solid conviction, no matter what it is has a countering opposite energy to it that reverses it's affects either for the good or for the bad.

We see this literally in the enemy's own energies which directly oppose our own. We are natural light beings, we are of the sun, we are positive and full of higher vibrations (well we're supposed to be), so everything of the enemy, they are of lower vibrational energies, parasitic, sadism, sickly gross things of death and misery, they are made up of energies that oppose us, this is why our very own Satanic energies of light and positive higher vibrations harm them so, and of course, vice versa.

It is also why doing the Ritual on ourselves feels good to us, because in reversing their letters and energies we are enforcing the opposite countering energies on the other scale of their energy channel and are thus destroying, dismantling and disolving their energies of which they've entrapped and bound us with over the years and it even reverses their very own souls when we do the Ritual because it is their own energies just like our own runes and words are Satanic energies that are beneficial to us.

Do you also notice that what the enemy does with our own signs and everything, our own symbols, the cross, the pentagram, they invert them? They reverse them? Because they know full well that all energies in the universe have an opposite countering force, and they utilize this to oppose our energies. But we are also utilizing this to oppose theirs. It's a matter of the stronger force, and in this spiritual war, ultimately with the help of our gods, that would be us.

Also remember rulerships. Rulerships are energies that coincide with pertaining to all the same things of the same vibrations or similar. Earth for example, black coloured energy, planet Saturn, stone onyx, they are of the same makeup in vibrations and energies, therefore they are rulerships of one another, work well with each other and are empowered by each other.

The Earth element rules over bindings because it rules over control. So when I say the Air element, as the opposite countering element in energy and vibration to Earth, dissolves bindings, I mean it dissolves bindings. Because bindings are of Earth, Air is the opposite of Earth, therefore it is the opposite force to a binding itself. Binding: Something that is restricting, confining and restraining, a binding is an extreme solidified energy matter of control to the point of locking and entrapping, too much control of something suffocates it, you know this perceptual experience of a very strict and controlling parent for instance, it's very confining and trapping... stuck.

Earth rules over this because it rules over control which in healthy levels can be positive self-control and discipline in a healthy moderation. Earth is the element of the base chakra which again follows these rulerships whereas if it is weakened or if the soul doesn't have enough Earth element, then this results in less ability to manifest and project control and discipline as well as self-discipline and causes little control over ones spiritual abilities. But too much control or too much Earth creates a binding or a feeling of being stuck and people with very high earth and extremely overpowered base chakras can find it hard to focus and work with spiritual energy or even tune into the astral realm, because there's too much grounded control, so as I said before: confinement, retraining, entrapping, restricting, binding. This is the same with black energy, Saturn and onyx stones in ruling over control and bindings, again to the factors of rulerships.

Earth and Air for example are both on the exact same channel of vibration they are on the same road... but they are on opposite sides of the road to one another, therefore counter each other in their oppositve affects and factors, and when they meet in the middle, they cancel each other out. Same with Fire and Water and everything else. Even Ether, the very element of perfected balance and harmony has two sides to it even though it is referred to as The All.

It is everything... but it is also nothing. This is why it is both called The All and The Void. It is used in void meditation and in perceptual invisibility. It is both what conjures our thoughts and enables us to think, and yet is also the sole cause to us having those random moments where we space out in a deep empty trance staring off into deep space 9, staring into nothing in complete silence. Not wanting to break the trance, not wanting to move out of it or to ruin it, not wanting to do anything but just stare unblinkingly into nothing.

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Now as for your suggestion regarding the Breath of Fire and contracting the abdominal muscles and in mentioning of it being sexual.... let's not be surprised by now at these conveniences and realize that something is very clearly going on for us to help one another, be it a connection between the two of us in sensing one another's needs and picking up on what might help, or the gods, regardless it is rather undeniable.

Because your suggestion had everything to do with sexual energy and the sacral chakra, which is the sexual chakra, of which is the one chakra that got effected first most violently upon me in binding and attack before all the other issues I had been dealing with grew worse and worse over time. In my desperation for a demon lover, some time ago I accidentally created an 'intent' thought-form. I perceived the realness of this thoughtform mistaking it for a demon, even though my fault was in not realizing I didn't feel any high bioelectricity which is usual when demons are near me or any Satanic energy at all.

I didn't really feel anything other than it's electrical 'touch' on my body (of which were my own directing of energy in expectation of thinking there was a being in front of me or around me) and the emotions and urges it manifested towards me to me make me feel, of which were also actually my own in what I wanted it to 'say' to me or make me 'feel' in my own expectations, but I was blinded to the truth or seeing objectively what was going on because of my emotional desires and desperation for love and of course sex at the time.

Needless to say I created a lucid dream character in waking life that eventually turned into a literal waking nightmare where this entity I created grew hostile from my sudden fear and doubts that it was actually my demon lover (past hangup) and the slightest doubt I felt made me think it was actually a hostile somehow and then lo and behold it responded to this as my own creation and began to act like a hostile from my expectation which only furthered my belief and panic and well, needless to say I lost full control and to put it bluntly, this entity repeatedly 'sexually assaulted' me and caused a lot of bindings and problems with my sacral chakra.

Zeus and the gods had since shown me through many signs that it was all in my head and I refound my control over it in realizing it wasn't actually a separate entity but my own creation. I have since destroyed it completely and have had no issues since, but the problems it left behind on my sacral chakra still need to be tended to, and your advice in the convenience of events in these past two days is most assuredly pertinent.

And funnily enough today some time before I read this, I was doing some physical exercising. More specifically I was doing sit-ups and something told me to focus more on my actual abs themselves while doing it, so I did. Almost immediately my sacral chakra reacted and without my consent it contracted my physical muscles in mirror from it's blockage, causing them to essentially lock-up like they would during the times that entity was assaulting me and binding it, and I got startled and curled up from it until it released. I had no idea what the hell happened until I read this from you. Sit-ups cause the same similar contraction of muscles as with the Breath of Fire.

Now the reason it's called the Breathe of Fire is because the abdominal muscles have to do with the sacral chakra, the sacral chakras element is the Fire element. When harshly contracting the muscles repeatedly like that, you are stimulating the sacral chakra to conjure forth it's energy and element, and this is why when doing it one heats up as the fire element is conjured from the chakra to spread throughout the soul and body in this physical stimulation, one then warms up.

Perhaps in doing this, I don't know if with the Ritual in particular but I'll do that as well anyways, I can produce energy and stimulation in the sacral chakra to empower it and try and break the blockage and binding. I'll probably get that 'locked-up' of the muscles in response as the blockage/binding reacts but I'm sure I can break through it this way.

Thank you brother SioF.

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

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So, last night after I read your suggestion I decided to go and give the Breath of Fire a shot. However in following the guidelines of the meditation on the page... well, I didn't really get any results or feel anything.

Of course this is where I go and connect to Andras for help. He urged me to look at specific words on the page to get the communication across quite very much like a visual ouja board powered by urge and I was focused on the word "Abdominal" then "Contract" then "PUSH" so I listened and just contracted my abdominal muscles and held it as best I could in just 'pushing'.

When I felt him tell me to release I did and that was when I finally felt the surge of energy rise from my sacral chakra and spread like a, yes, very sexually pleasurable warmth all the way up through my upper chakras. After that subsided, I felt him draw my attention to the words on the page "Lower your chin to your chest", so I did and repeated what I did before in contracting my abdomen and holding it for a few seconds.

When I released, I I could feel that same energy rise up, however I felt it rebound from the bottom of my throat back into my heart chakra and felt a pressure there as well as the energy going back down towards the sacral chakra area. I did this another time and then was urged to look at the word "PUSH" and I felt the need to do it very hard, so I did and was immediately startled and shocked when a strong and sharp pop essentially occurred at one of my minor navel chakras. It was about the size of a qaurter and felt very hot, not exactly painful but it was a shock for sure.

At first I actually got concerned and wondered if I actually physically hurt something but was reassured that this wasn't the case and ended up 'looking' intuitively at the area and I noticed that on that spot there was no longer a blockage. Either way it was progress. I was urged to the word on the page "exercise" and could've sworn I saw the word "sets" in my peripheral warp to say "sit-ups", I remember yesterday when I was doing them so I just heeded the words and went to do sit-ups.

I kept thinking he wanted me to just do some sort of specific manner of combining the meditation but he really just told me to do them normally so I did for a little while. I eventually stopped and felt no further instructions. Confused I looked to Andras for further guidance but couldn't interpret him telling me anything. So I went back to my computer to just try again in what I was priorly guided to do.

However this was when I felt Satan's energy connect to me and in tuning in I felt urged against continuing with the meditation and wondered why. I listen to Satan no matter what, he urged me to look at the words "PLEASE NOTE, DO NOT, perform, THIS, BREATH, it increases the amount of" and then I kind of lost my tuning to him and didn't know what he was urging me to next. I thought he was going to urge me to oxygen next or something, but I realized I was accidentally urging myself at that point.

That's when I psychically stepped back and retuned, I felt him urging me to a pentragram symbol. I then felt the word "elements" and then realized "Oh yeah... fire.... it increases fire." and I asked him if he wanted me to stop because it was raising my fire too high and I felt a strong "Yes" come through the connection. If I kept going it was going to raise my fire element too high to imbalance the water element in my soul, and likely prevent me from getting much sleep that night. He told me to wait until tomorrow... which is well today so I could probably do those exercises again at some point, unless they tell me to do something otherwise. I definitely feel the rise in my fire element and don't know if it's a good idea to do that exercise again. I'll see what I'm instructed on.

Thanks for guiding me to the meditation though brother, it definitely did something in breaking one of the blockages, there's still more to be done but all in due time. Connecting to and finding guidance in the gods is also of course imperative.

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

When you say too much Earth binds one from his/her own ability to tune in the astral and using psychic abilities I think of how I feel slower and how I seem not to be as good as I was before deducing things via the scent.

I had a feeling yesterday after reading your posts that I have to warn you not to royally overdo a single element. You are just like me, all-or-nothing type.

I'm still on daily Quintessence. My perceptions are changing and something is definitely moving, I'm just not yet sure what or where. I may have to take a break from it but haven't felt like that yet.

Take care, Bruh.

Apprentice wrote:

I had a feeling yesterday after reading your posts that I have to warn you not to royally overdo a single element. You are just like me, all-or-nothing type.

I'm still on daily Quintessence. My perceptions are changing and something is definitely moving, I'm just not yet sure what or where. I may have to take a break from it but haven't felt like that yet.

Take care, Bruh.

I know, Bro. Feels like that a lot, especially when I land on Earth again and again, wanting to fix the imbalance intensely, precisely as you put it.

I think you're pretty savvy going for Quintessence as you're doing, and also that perhaps you will make a difference in how I learn about it too, maybe even how I view it.
Right now I'm going for more Air (after over a week, maybe two, of trusting Earth to solve all my problems) but I can tell you that just deciding to go back to it has made me excited and happy, in a way.

Yes, I'm very all-or-nothing, especially when it comes to elements. Air, however, is the only element that doesn't make me uncomfortable in the slightest, not too hot and perhaps moody/irritable, not overly emotional, and not so grounded that I don't feel like myself anymore sometime, unable to soar and less able than normal to perceive scents and astral scents, which depending on the contest gives me a little insight. So Air is like a safe house, easy to come back to and comfortable.

What Brother Ghost explained about unbinding has made my decision to rebalance Air even easier to make though, and given the latest unexpected results in stimulating the third eye area almost physically I feel very positive about it.

I will try to learn more about the Quintessence too however.. thinking about it now, from the current perspective, I sense the Ether has got all I'm missing on by re-embracing Air, which means even Earth obviously, but minus the rather noticeable uncomfortable feeling of knowing I'm like a fish moved to a very different tank.

I might just decide to use Ether alone to fix my imbalances and Air to 'all-or-nothinging' it.

Truth be told, I'm still surprised I'm Air dominant and lacking Earth as much as I do. I know some elemental lacks show up in a way that suggests the person has plenty of that element instead, but I still see many Earth things in me, other times it's the Water that felt more dominant.
No wonder I always had such a hard time understanding what my element was, before knowing about the natal chart method. If anything I might have said I lacked Air, as shown for example by my strong ability to hold huge quantities of it, way over a 100 breaths, while too much Earth feels too dense and even painful as you know.

Guess I gotta use what I have to its fullest and find new ways to employ it for more.

Do let me know about your experience with the Quintessence, I'm very curious, Brother.

HAIL ZEUS!

Satan_is_our_Father666 wrote:

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

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When you say too much Earth binds one from his/her own ability to tune in the astral and using psychic abilities I think of how I feel slower and how I seem not to be as good as I was before deducing things via the scent. I still have an above average sense of smell, but somehow I feel too 'grounded' and not as much in control of that.
This tends to get a little too confusing while I try to balance my Earth and my Air without overdoing either of them too much, but on the other hand I always tended to overdo one element before using its opposite and this in turn made me more resistant to them than I can tell most people are, perhaps. Pros and cons, then. I guess the next logical step is trying to dose them both with greater attention and keep both in check as I did notice a better ability to visualize and slow my mind to the point I nearly lose contact with my physical self even while I'm sitting with crossed legs (thanks for Earth, the lately used Ice element which proved great in deal with my infested ex, and applying stronger willpower) but I also feel like I lost something that makes me 'me', somehow. And now I wonder if that means my Soul is transforming due to the increased Earth and decreased Air. I need to investigate this further, with a calmer mind (the latest events, ex and other daily worries and lack of sleep time made me not so great when it comes to relaxing).

I already know then for a fact that you feel trapped in yourself or stuck, the 'outside' world beyond your body and aura seems like it's something further to reach out to or like there's something in the way. And it's a confinement that is suffocating you and cutting you off from not only your spiritual sensing but also in your understanding in knowing about yourself and the things around you as well as your emotions and emotional freedom. (Earth rules bindings, therefore as it's opposite Air rules freedom), you feel like you're trapped or imprisoned in something right? That's called too much Earth element brother.

Remember what I said about the Earth element, it rules control, bindings, containment, and this can be utilized in a healthy level but too much... well you get what you're feeling right now. This is being caused by you using the Earth element on yourself for too long and too much. By focusing on yourself in using it, if you do this for too long you are actually 'burying' yourself within a confined astral elemental prison from multiple understandings and perceptions. You then become far too in tuned to the logic and material understanding and material matters of the physical plane and your connection and reach towards the astral grows more distant and cut off.

Also do you not remember what I warned about in regards to the Ice element? You said you feel slower, Ice is binding just like Earth, they both make one slow like a dimwitted and lumbering rock creature. When you use the ice element to still the energies in your mind, you should be doing it one breath and wait a 15 to 30 minutes to see it's effects and gradually just keep going at this 'wait and see' thing until you get the desired result. Blasting yourself with it to get quick results is only a temporary relief, you shouldn't be using it all the time as it can bind your mind, you should be finding the source of the problem or seek alternative means (visualizing a calm blue ocean, or just do or focus on things that are calm, slow and relaxing or listen to calm music or the sounds of the ocean) the direct route is sometimes too direct.

but I also feel like I lost something that makes me 'me', somehow.

The Air element is a big part of what makes you, you, remember you were so obsessed with electricity? You can still have the general personality and underlying behaviour of an Air person but that has to do with a deeper factor to your spiritual make-up and doesn't mean the element itself is actually high in your soul. You're missing that feeling of yourself for a reason, because you've snuffed down your Air element with too much Earth... which makes you feel like you lost what makes you you. Take note of this 'gut-feeling' you literally just described in feeling like you lost something of yourself, that right there is called intuition. You intuitively feel, see and recognize that something is wrong about yourself and your soul.

As a side note my own intuition screamed "something is wrong" at this particular post from you that I'm currently responding to. I have a very powerful and wrong vibe from it to the point I actually physically leaned away with a cringe, it feels very wrong and is definitely not you, not like from before. Your words are too stiff, there's no free-flowing laxness to them, it's far too "logical" and controlled. There's also none of that emotion to it and I feel like I'm reading a post from Jack (Who also focuses too much on control, discipline and never reacts or gets offended at anything which means a lacking of emotional bond from the upper Air and Water chakras and too much Earth. I've warned him of this but that's all I could do.)

I am getting far too much of a 'robot' vibe from the majority of your paragraphs. You have to logically explain your emotions very particularly "I feel" "I am glad" "I had hoped" like some kind of AI that needs to describe it's feelings to a human because it cannot actually express them (The use of "had" here is a logical break up differentiation which means a separation of the two words in distinction of emotional use where as the word "was" harmonizes two words together in emotion).

I also recall now that day when I found the yellow flowers. As much as I would like to think I did in fact have a hand being the one to think it was a good idea to tell you about the Air element first about it, I recently learned this wasn't the case. Looking into the 'akasha archive' (Same thing we use in doing past-life regression to look into our past) in memory to the astral recorded scenario and moment, I was able to look back and notice a distinct separation from that thought in accordance to my own mind. It wasn't my own thought like I figured it was, it was implanted into my head and then I immediately focused on it thinking it was mine, it turns out, at least from what I am gathering, it came from Satan to put the idea into my head and then tell you what I discovered about it in using Air to break bindings(Earth).

I think the gods see that you are trapping yourself and confining yourself into a prison with too much Earth and this is going to debilitate your spiritual potential and abilities, like you said it seems to be doing, and the more it continues the harder it's going to be to spiritually tune in to even fix the problem because you're going to struggle so much to gain access to those focuses and abilities to do so. You need to stop using the Earth element for a while and focus more on your Air AND GO SLOWLY AND STEADILY (I will explain why below), specifically in removing these bindings you unintentionally placed upon yourself and in raising it in your soul back to the normal you. This might be why it seems like a sign of the gods or in understanding the sheer coincidences of all we've been telling each other, we both got issues to deal with and we're both helping one another from them.

The way you're going about with the elements is far too harsh, you're going back and forth between them too immediately. When I was working with the water element, I went thinking if I got too cold I could just blast it with fire. What I ended up with was both the powerful effects of fire and water and because they were countering each other so distinctly and violently at once in present experience, the chaos of the opposition caused me major confusion and all I ended up with was overcharging both their aspects and aggression and became emotionally frustration, my body felt both hot and cold like an icey hot pack was wrapped around all over me. It was maddening, I vowed to never make that mistake again.

You see when you use an element, the FIRST things you're going to feel are your psychic (upper chakras perceiving perception and emotion) and physical experience of it. These are present-tense and immediate experiences, it takes time for energy like elements to actually settle and apply themselves to the composition of your soul, a lot of time. And this is why on the elements page of our website it is said to wait after using an element.

So when you raise the Air element to try and counter the Earth what you're probably doing is trying to blast yourself with the element, but the only thing that is actually happening and your experiencing first is how you're effecting your 'exterior' soul, chakras, psyche and emotional perception and physical environment/body. For the element to actually harmonize into your soul's elemental composition to rise in level and balance the other one and this can take days or a month with only focusing on the one element to balance the other and not using any other element, just the one to fix the imbalance, it's energies upon yourself need to be given lots of time in order to be passively drawn in and enabled to, quite legitimately, seep into your actual astral body in order to integrate into it and then truly lower your Earth element in your soul.

When you blast yourself with these elements, the immediate present-time response can make you feel like you did too much because you're psychically or physically overwhelmed by it's 'current effect' applied uses to you. So what you end up doing is then trying to counter that with Earth, and still you only end up experiencing the psychic and physical effects of it. If you then leave off on Earth, you likely completely washed out the Air element you conjured just before it, so then the Earth element is the last thing you did therefore is the last element that is remaining upon your soul to be gradually drawn in and risen in your actual composition, then you actually leave worse off with your Earth risen even higher. That or you end up blasting yourself with both elements, but they cancel each other out and you ultimately didn't achieve anything.

You're issue here with the elements is that you're rushing. When it comes to correcting and balancing your composition with the elements, your greatest ally is TIME. Do a few breaths of Air at a time and wait 30 minutes to an hour, to ensure that you don't get psychically overwhelmed by it, if you're still fine after that time, to a few more breaths and wait another 30 minutes to an hour. If it starts to feel overwhelming after an hour or so, then stop there for the day. There's a reason it says on the website to not do too much at once. Wait on the element for the entire day and work on one element at a time.

The Elements are primordial, I don't know what it's like for the gods but for us they move like molasses in actually integrating into our soul when trying to find balance. You need to give time and be patient, like water. Some old sloth once said "The daily drip hollows the stone". Have more patience, I don't think you should be experimenting with the elements for a while until you correct your composition. This feeling you have in needing a break from doing that is likely an urge or telling from Satan or the gods in your mind in warning you of what you're doing and what you need, which is a big break to pull yourself together.

SLOWLY and GRADUALLY I would suggest just working on dissolving down the bindings you placed upon yourself with the Air element, in just passively engulfing yourself in it for a couple of minutes a day. And if you do any breaths, I would say no more than 3 and then wait 30 minutes to an hour before you do another 3, I wouldn't repeat this all day and if things starts to feel like you're doing too much or are getting overwhelmed, stop for the day and wait until tomorrow. Relax, go slow. The Elements can be violent forces of the universe, we see this in storms, you must be smart in using them.

Speaking of storms, they are in fact of the Air element, physically indulging in some research on them online or even tornadoes, how they work, what makes them happen, can mirror on the astral the indulgence of Electricity and Air and in a safe way help to raise your Air element in your soul. I literally just discovered this in noticing for the past month I have been constantly wanting and desiring it to thunder and storm all the time and I didn't know why until I pieced all of this together. This is because it's association to the Air element is drawn in through attentive focus to what it rules over (storms) to weaken the bindings on my soul, a storm feels like freedom to me and makes me happy in this moment.

For me I can see a thunderstorm being my focus, because thunder storms are powerful and power is ruled by the lower chakras, and since those are the ones that are blocked, by combining this aspect with the Air element of the storm itself, it can help free them. That's for me though, I'm not sure if for you maybe tornadoes would be better, or just straight up lightening. What do you feel more drawn to in desiring to free yourself and get back the you you so desire to feel again? Might take a bit of focus to tune in for your 'soul' to tell you.

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As always it seems your intuition won't fail, Brother.

Yeah, I feel very much like what you described. Bound, blocked, stuck where I am, and also your accurate description of how I feel towards the outside, not just the astral, is very much to the point here.

Indeed I have spent the last day or two (ever since reading your last reply on how Earth binds) not really absorbing Air like a maniac, but let's say looking at it from afar, wondering if I'm not just going to blast myself with it like I always tend to do with elementalism, bouncing from one element to the opposite in an instant, desperate to feel the effects.

(PS. sorry if in this post I'll be brief or just from one topic to another, I haven't got much time today but really want to cover some points before I forget.)

The more I read your reply and understood it spoke clearly of my case, the more I wanted to 'blast myself' with Air, but before I did I finished reading it all.
You see, even now I am finding it harder to be as communicative as I usually am, I do feel that my last reply to you was too 'blocky' and hard headed, lacking a freedom I always enjoy while writing. So there's no point beating around the bush here, you are 100% right.
Knowing about my natal chart imbalance I think of myself as 'naturally too Airy', which makes me want to overdo the Earth dosage in an attempt to reach the next life cycle with a better looking balance, but I admit I have lots of trouble realizing where I currently am on the elemental page. I know I easily find peace in Air. Even now, I'm almost desperate to go back to Air lol. Just holding back my horses because you told me to go slow, but the truth is when I think of Air I feel already better, freer, somehow more capable, and SURELY more capable than I feel when I work on my Earth.

The Earth and Ice (not that much Ice/ISA honestly) has been working great when I was dealing with my ex, I had a much less emotional reaction than I thought I'd have to deal with, and it indeed helped me disposing of someone very unneeded in my life without having second thoughts. That worked great, no doubt about that.
The 'problems' I have still noticed.... well, reading your post is actually helping me cast more light even on my own understanding, almost as if I'm getting better at using my intuition by observing how yours is working, if that makes sense. Kind of like an osmotic learning. Learning quickly for me has always been an asset when it comes to logical stuff, but when it's about spiritual, energetic, Soul matters, it's all but easy. I find myself overthinking and wondering, comparing my research on myself with that of others and not ever stopping the thinking in favor of feeling.
I guess that's where I have to stop being so much Air and use Earth to slow myself down and feel (not for nothing I made an entire post about Earth being the most spiritual of the elements, right? Cuz it helps me slow my vibration down and tune to the astral, unlike the fast working Air that leads to overthinking and shitty Void meditations).

Too much Earth element then.. of course. Guess I never really realized how much it could bind someone, I had to test it this much just to understand that. Glad I have you to point it out, I'm not sure I would have realized this was a binding and not just a bad period or something unrelated (this IS a stressful period between various shit at home, the stupid pointless 'health measures' at work and all these lies being told so often.. that's the only thing that makes me sick.. stupidity and ignorance on the loose).

Calm ocean and waves sound like a really good idea. Not because it makes me suddenly think of Water element lol, but it's a relaxing scenery.
Actually, I have been getting back to drawing lately and thought of how I could use some ideal blank place, like a drawn beach with black ink and white paper, to use that as a meditative place. Something to limit my mind to only a couple things, giving it space to host anything else, the voice of our Gods, intuitive thoughts, visions, etc. Other than a great deal of satisfaction when the drawing gets good it's also relaxing.

Quickly answering to the other question, I normally find it AMAZING to listen to and witness thunderstorms. Ever since I was a child I loved the "bad weather".. fuck people who call it that, that's my favorite weather. The scent of ozone from the rain, the watery sprays on one's face when leaning close to a semi open window, the electricity in the air, the wonderful sound... that's my thing. If I could live my entire life in a storm I so would, mate. More often than not, I leave the computer on at night just to play the sound of thunderstorms, nothing makes me happier than that.
Didn't really realize I was 'obsessed' with electricity.. :P I just find it wonderful, complete, almost like it's the perfect union of two worlds, perhaps almost as if a lightning comes directly from the astral as a reminder to Humans that the astral is still there.
(And yes, I know these last things I said will suggest either that I've been already overdoing Air element.. haven't, but I'm very glad to hear Air is the 'unbinder' I need... and will probably kick in your intuition, casting some light on my Soul, possibly giving you answers even I don't know yet.)

Just re-read the part where you describe how you cringed reading my post, feeling me so different from the 'me' you know. I can very much understand why. Again, these, other than the overdoing with Earth, are the 'after effects' of me closing down to deal with my ex, not to be catching anything. Guess I've been extra careful and blocked myself even further after heeding your advice and that of others here who told me to ditch her completely. If Earth was the binder I needed to be on the safe side then I'm glad I overdid it this time, got out of it safely, learned the truth on what happened, became more aware of the enemy threat on those around me (since they can't get to me). I will fix this with very slow and patient Air, no worries.

If you're right, and I think you are, about Satan sending you this thought on yellow flowers than I'm twice as glad it did. I do understand how I've been always, not just in this instance, jumped from one element to another, and I know it never really helped me as much as it could. Only in the last year I have been truly observing good results and effects, as good as to be able to give decent advice about them to others other than the obvious and clearly stated in the ToZ Meditation pages.
I gather this is also probably the ultimate example I needed to finally choose to dose the elements slowly and patiently in my Soul, in order not to encounter these rookie mistakes and effects that eventually lead to confusion.

Speaking of balancing elements and the Gods' ability to do this...
I've been thinking lately, and yesterday more than ever perhaps, of how the Gods seem to 'have an element'. Their descriptions in the ToZ clearly state they have one instead of the others, meaning.. what exactly? I have always believe the Gods were very much in tune with all of them at all times, then someone here mentioned that even the Gods have a 'favorite' one so to speak. I've been occasionally reading descriptions of their offices and areas of expertise and tried to relate it to their elements.. this doesn't ALWAYS make perfect sense (to me at least, as I don't understand everything about all offices and all elements obviously) but mostly it does seem to suggest a pattern.
For example, Gods that teach about herbs, stones, alchemy and such sciences usually have Water under their main element. Does it mean that Water as the main element relates to transformation and subjects that involve change? Other Gods who can heal and teach about healing have Air as element, does it mean that, mostly, Air dwells with healing too? There's a few that particularly caught my eye, but this ultimately lead me to think...
Does this observation potentially mean that we are assigned a Guardian that teaches about subjects related to our favorite/better used element?
If this theory turns out to be true (which however would suggest it works only following a LOGICAL thinking, not any other kind, as intuitive), then there's possibly even more ways to determine who one's Guardian Daemon is. I read a while ago about someone (an High Priestess I believe) who mentioned that our Guardian belongs to the sex we are attracted to, as one of the things to keep in mind when trying to figure out who He/She is. Assuming I'm right in thinking of this elemental relation to be correct, it would possibly make it even easier to follow an exclusion process (bad choice of words but you get what I mean I guess).

On a completely unrelated note... (and I think you'll somehow mention the word 'bindings' here..)

Remember how I said I wasn't really feeling much anymore when doing the Ritual, compared to the first couple months at least? Yesterday I decided to do one more for the day, with 36 (x9 four times) reps and spent a good half an hour speaking the letters in an almost vibrated tone. I did feel something again. It had a little of that 'dizziness' effect I felt once when doing it mentally, but it also felt pleasing, energizing, kind of.
My thoughts... I think the overdone Earth has been favoring the enemy in trying to cement my own bindings, and the Ritual felt like that because it was undoing them, freeing that Earth from their vicious shit. Next step (slowly, I know) will be further unbinding and freeing the Soul with Air element over a period of time.

Another (quick!) thing before I have to run.

Yesterday I decided to try something else I haven't done before: I opened up all the ToZ pages (only the Goetic ones for now) and vibrated each of the Gods' names to see if any of them had a particular effect on my, suggesting anything in particular, when determining who my Guardian is (I have a pretty good guess, but it also makes little sense as there's always three of them, two in particular that I feel very close).
When doing this vibration I felt naturally more drawn to these three, two females and a male. I don't know if this sex rule is so accurate and don't really like to think of it as a preference either.. I eventually want to get to know ALL our Gods, regardless of gender, shape or anything else. One of them, the male, being Raum, however, I am not so sure of simply because as I normally use the RAUM mantra for meditating I am probably better used to its vibrational power and feel it more easily. Also, I think I'm not that capable to vibrate "HAURES" (tried even FLAUROS) as it still sounds a lot like 'ARES', and if I'm not wrong He's your Guardian, Andras, and I wouldn't want to confuse them even more.
There's only Leraje remaining, and I must say I DO have a good feeling about Her. She's (that I understand now) the very first Goddess I've ever seen entirely, smiling, beautiful like nothing else I've ever seen. When I first read Her description it all felt very familiar, the wind manipulation, the healing.. and in the same period I have dropped a box of incense and 6 sticks fell on the floor, reminding me of how She has the 6 of Rods tarot card as well.
Long story short, She's the only one I really feel like I 'belong' to, if that makes sense, in an almost motherly way. More signs indicated Her as my Guardian, and I have seen her sigil clearly in my mind at some point while meditating.
Honestly, mate, the only reason I have been postponing accepting Her as my Guardian Daemoness is that I am afraid of making a mistake and offending another God/Goddess. That's literally the only thing.... pretty stupid, isn't it.

HAIL ZEUS!

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Just a quick note: sorry about all the grammar and syntax mistakes I've made in the last long post (that was supposed to be very brief but got me typing for over an hour).
I normally check for spelling errors and such but had zero time left before having to rush to work. Hope it's still readable, please disregard the mistakes.

PS. Don't know if it has anything to do with my elemental working but I REALLY improved my drawing skills lately. That avatar picture is my latest one.

HAIL ZEUS!

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Surprisingly enough, you seem to be intriguing me into elements in return of my helping you understand intuition.

For so long I've actually pretty much ignored their existence in my advancements in favour of general energies and Runes. But I've been rather curious and drawn to Air in these past few days, and while writing this, visions of lightning and very specifically yellow coloured lightning, and, believe it or not, Zeus throwing down lightning bolts just flashed into my mind. I don't know if I'm being told something specific but whatever it is it seems to involve Air and lightning, or electricity, and when I think about it I feel something in my lower soul (where the harder bindings were placed)

I've been thinking strongly of yellow coloured lightening for a couple days now and today I used the colour yellow and visuals of the Air element (yellow lightening and clouds/wind) with relaxed focus but strong intent, and I felt something 'pushing down' the wall I felt that was essentially barricading my lower soul, I think I managed to get rid of something because when I focus on my soul, that area feels a lot more open and free now, to be worked on further I suppose but this Air element seems to be helping me. I have been working with Andras very closely in the past week (Yes, you are correct, he is my guardian. Damn cool one too and he's a lot more caring than most people might believe given he's a hardened warrior, he's been very emotionally and realistically supportive.). Today he revealed to me something, or at least it was strongly interpreted with urging to very specific words on my computer and such, again like a visual Ouija board, I try well to relax and close off my wild imaginations so I don't misinterpret anything as my own accidental intended urges when this happens and I feel his connection (has happened quite terribly in the past) and I've gotten surprisingly good at solid communications so far just in this past week.

Anyways, I was doing the Ritual today, and like you, I was struggling to feel the vibrations and energy reversal because I too got bindings to deal with, different but still bindings of Earth in that I was too grounded to physical focus and was struggling to properly tune into feeling it. I tuned into Andras for guidance and heard very clearly the words "Here" sound in my head and energy drawing forth to where my sacral chakra is. I invoked him a little bit to have him help guide my focus towards there on the astral and finally slowly felt the Ritual doing it's job on whatever additional bindings the enemy put in that area overnight.

He's been telling me strongly what to do each day to help free myself and progress, and even if i'm not getting it, he's still managing to make me do it. For example right after I finished all of my Rituals I was immediately urged to do the ToZ Protection Ritual, so I focused on the logo on our website like I always do but felt something projecting from it at my third-eye to intervene with my focus. It wasn't negative but I was focusing simultaneously on Andras and it felt like it was the same energy. I realized as I was vibrating Algiz, Sowilo and Tyr into this focus, the energies were rebounding back to go straight into my sacral chakra area among other things on my soul. So I ended up vibrating them on myself in the end regardless.

Now onto what he revealed to me though after I went on a tangent there. When I was vibrating Tyr, my intent was guided to strongly put emphasis on the RRR in a very particular manner, and the T was starting to sound more like a vibrated D. I felt the need to say the word Dragon, it just felt so satisfying to say it. When I finished with the vibrations immediately I was urged in flitting through a bunch of open tabs, some pages of our website, some of my folders. And I was drawn to the word "Gods"(As in the code for chakras) and once I interpreted that as communication I was then pulled to the word "of" and then "Dragons". A long time ago it was revealed to me that my spiritual animal is the dragon and it represents my soul's composition and personality and generally who I am, I think some monks wrote things about 'dragon energies' but I don't know what kind of hoo-hah that potentially may be.

Anyways admittedly a month or so ago around the deeper point I was starting to lose myself, I remember seeing dragons every where. Figurines in stores, posters, even wanting to pick a random book from a shelf and it had the word 'dragon' in the title with the cover of dragons as well. I was struggling to know what that even meant or what I was being told, but if I'm honest with myself I know it now because well, for the past 5 months or so, I kind of lost who I was a bit. That draconic ferocity of a warrior, battle-hardened with vigor to gain power, strength and to fight the good fight. I didn't notice how passive I was starting to do everything, how I was losing that vigor of who I am, that dragon spirit.

In truth I don't know what went wrong, when or exactly how, either I focused too much on intuitional power and Aether and forgot the other warrior/dragon half of my soul, or if it was working at a job in an enemy location surrounded by enemies for a year, or if it was that attack with the self-made thoughtform. Either way, something happened to ultimately make me close out on the lower masculine chakras and that draconic spirit, enemy attacks were in fact involved, though during that time I never noticed them, I only saw them this past few weeks. The dragon spirit, fiery energies, the sacral chakra and it's extensions, that warrior side of me was what drove me in courage, ferocity and determination every single day to advance, advance and advance and to fight, fight, fight. And I have no doubt the enemy had a good hand in steering me away from that, I just never saw it or noticed.

I'm getting it back though and in finally learning to quieten my own mind as the gods had been constantly warning me that as someone so psychically inclined with power, my own mind can be my worst enemy which has been proven again and again, I'm seeing things more clearly. It also helps to have quit that job. Things have been falling into place little by little for me as I've been putting in effort with the help of Satan and my guardian to better myself and get back up from this mess, because no matter how many times one falls down and crumbles into a pile of ash, I will always remember what rises from ash without fail every single time as per it's very nature. A fiery and courageous phoenix.

Like you, I feel like I had lost part of myself. We both can work in getting it back. For you, it's your free Air self, for me it's my Fire self. And this brings me to the elements of Demons. Contrary to what it might seem, our gods are not the best at everything equally, they profoundly excel in specific areas and this is what is known as their "office"; We essentially have them too once you find out what you're good at and who you are. This is why when you ask one demon for something that isn't written on their page as their specialty or 'office' they will instead refer you to another demon who does. One can be the jack of all trades but only a master of 1... or 2.. or well, it varies from demon to demon and person to person, but you get what I mean.

This uniqueness is also why they have specific elements that they favour and in truth it is the element that most represents them as an individual in personality, role and capability. This isn't always obvious because hey I go on about psychic powers, intuition and the ether which are all Water and Air element things but I'm actually a Fire individual, those are just some things I'm good at, I can't really say Ether is mine because, well, it's all elements, but my primary is in fact Fire, even though in my chart I am high in all elements except for water (Funnily enough the western dragon in mythology's spiritual composition is also high in Fire, Earth and Air but no Water, just like me, I thought that was interesting to me).

Fire is very warrior-like, explosive, ferocious, it is a very founding element to strength and power, so it's no surprise that I share this trait with Andras, one of the great warriors of Satan's army who trains warriors and who's element on his profile is in fact Fire. Our guardians are more than just protectors, they are assigned to us not to primarily protect us, that is their secondary purpose from their first one, which is to teach us how to come into our own composition and selves and who we are as well as to utilize this. And for this be so, they have to specialize in everything that makes you, you.

So yes, you share a lot with your guardian whoever it may be, sometimes even your chart ruling planet, favourite animal (the wolf was my favourite animal for 15 years to the point of obsession growing up and Andras' animal is the hell hound/wolf). I also share strongly, the compositional energies from my natal chart, his planets. Andras is also an artist, growing up I loved drawing and art and to this day, though I don't draw as often as I used to, I still love outlet of creativity and beauty in art and paintings. Also, your guardian demon isn't actually according to any sexual preference but this is a large factor into what gender you are most comfortable with so it's nothing more than just a mere guideline. If you're straight, you're likely very comfortable with females, I am homosexual and Andras is male, I feel more comfortable with men than I do with women.

And I'm going to tell you right now, and try not to freak out too much about it, I'm only saying what I experienced and felt, there are no mediators in Zevism I can't tell you how things are to the exact letter and be "Oh yeah, this is totally 100% it man, listen to me or else" and all that garbage, trust your own gut feeling, I'm only saying what I felt which is not always accurate and keep that in mind but trust your own instinct here. So yeah, there I am reading your post here all the way down to you talking about your suspected guardians, it's all casual, I'm feeling the typical energy reading of your Earth situation in bindings.

Just your own typical kind of thing, and then, yes, I get to Laraje and then a sudden immediate change of energy in tie to you out of no where hits me like, no pun intended but that's how it felt, a gust of wind in my face. It was very positive and felt almost as if I just connected with someone personally close to you without my consent or control. I could almost not only feel but see the transferring connection between this name and you, and truth be told I entirely forgot about who she was in regards to how you made posts in the past fawning about her until I kept reading past the name and what you said after and thought "Oooh", so this was not driven at all by emotion or past-acknowledged opinion, that energy was shot straight at me for me to feel, whether she did it herself or if I just sensed something, I don't know 100% yet.

Anyways suddenly I'm bolting over to the demons page to look for her profile and what is drawn to my attention in urging is her element and planet, which I have no doubt you share strongly with her. I think multiple signs even were evident here, the most important one being you can't let her go. When I was new and was still trying to figure out who my guardian was, I always, always was drawn to Andras. I doubted and doubted time to time and wasn't entirely sure, I would explore all other potentials and even devote a couple of days to one other demon I thought might have been my guardian but no matter what I did I always came straight back to Andras. And from there he showed me many signs that it was him and I even felt his energies as the years went on. The gods can urge you, any time, any where to bring you in the right direction, if no matter what you're feeling, emotion or logic, you keep being drawn to that demon as your guardian, well, I'm gonna tell you right now... I think you found her.

And you know what I think the funniest sign is... you love her. You're drawn to her beauty and to her in general like that of any man who would be drawn to love his mother, or even a woman he wants to hold and love, it does not have to be relationship wise though, love is a flexible emotion. Why do I think this is a sign? She is the goddess of love she makes anybody love anyone, it is literally her ability to attract people with love and if you ask me I think she is literally doing that to you and using that very power on you yourself to make you love her as her own personal sign in her own symbolical ability that yes, she IS your guardian. I can't believe I didn't even see or notice that, it's literally right there. You love the goddess of love who makes people love anyone she wants and to whomever, including herself.

That is a powerful sign right there because when Andras was telling me he was MY guardian, he also used something related to him. I was well aware that the wolf was his animal and when he was summoned he was attended by a black hell hound, in general this can be watered down to any black canine. When I was wondering if he was really my guardian in a true determined effort to figure it out, for two whole months on my way to work I would not be able to go a single day without seeing at least 1 black dog, usually it was like 3 or more though, and it happened so often every single day without fail that I legit noticed it and began to question how the hell so many people in my city owned so many black dogs and were constantly walking them in my path, not even just in going to work but that was the most riddled path. He planned for people who owned black dogs to take them for a walk along the route I always take to work, at the same time of day every single time and it wasn't even the same people or the same dogs even each time. And you know what? As soon as I made the connection and realized it was a sign that he was my guardian and accepted that he was my guardian, I never saw a single black dog again for the next 6 months the exact day after I made that connection and realization, which only proved it ever further.

They use their OWN symbology and powers. I think at this point, it's very safe to say, you do know who your guardian demon is and you've subconsciously known this whole time. I'm excited about this as well but probably not as much as you are in reading this. I mean, it makes far too much sense. When I was new I didn't have a lick of personality to what Andras stood for, and it was my mistake in telling you before that "Oh you're like your guardian and blah blah blah" and yet I completely forgot that I wasn't like MY guardian until years and years later in my spiritual development. I developed it over time and came into myself as I advanced and freed my soul over the years to know who I was, and in knowing who I was my connection with Andras became ever more apparent.

You still have time in your own development to discover yourself and in what ways you are actually more alike with your guardian than you're aware of. But back then, I didn't yet come into myself to know who he was, you don't NEED to reach that level to find out who they are.

I think it's a good idea to contact Laraje and start discovering that close bond personally for yourself, because I think it's incredibly difficult at this point with all of these signs to deny that she is in fact your guardian demon. That was probably the connection I felt between you two, and again, I don't know if she was the one who made me feel that because I can read those kinds of things and lately we've been very 'coincidentally' working closely together in helping one another spiritually, but in that moment I felt it very strongly and undeniably as a most certain connection and it's entirely possible she very well did make me feel and see that connection to tell you all of this and make you aware, hell I didn't even see it until I felt that so in truth she likely made me realize too.

Ghost in the Machine wrote:

When I read that Satan told you to keep your spine straight I probably should've been heeding that as well. I forgot about your message and was repeatedly slouching in posture while meditating and Andras would sharply urge me and has constantly been reminding me to stop slouching in this past week. He was bringing to my attention my heart chakra and my shoulder chakras in which it was made aware to me by the cold stinging sensation of my shoulders (signs of a blocked/sealed chakra) that they're blocked, and by slouching I'm preventing energies from rising and circulating up to my heart chakra and through the rest of the extensions and majors.

I just read your message before my evening meditations and felt an urge to heed this. In retrospect, it makes totally sense.

For the last 2 or 3 years I've had stinging pains in my shoulders where the shoulder chakras would be. Also I've had intermittent sharp sensations like there is a dagger stabbed right between my shoulder blades. This pain can last days. Of course I'm guilty of slouching whenever I work on a computer, meditate or even drive (which I do a lot).

When I was in high school, I remember I once went to a wall and stood straight with my back, heels, shoulders and head touching the wall and made a mental note to keep this athletic, arian posture. I keep this posture whenever I walk but during driving, working on a computer etc. it's hard not to relax.

So today I sat straight as a pencil as I did the Ritual. At one point I felt something I can't describe. I started laughing and crying at the same time. Now I have a sensation of lightness in my chest. Also there's a hint of a slight headache. Is this the aftermath of a released chakra blockage? I feel great.

I just wanted to drop this quick note and also say Thank You, GitM and SioF666.