So, my chart says that I should have serious potential and even already manifesting spiritual abilities.
I have:
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My pluto is powerfully aspecting my Mercury. The thing is I seriously struggle to experience anything spiritual that seems obvious in a big way.
What makes me really bothered is I have met and befriended people who are non-Zevism but seem to have all of this so much easier and free-flowing.
They would experience prophetic dreams, sometimes even see and hear things, and getting spiritual awakenings.
Sometimes, I get really jealous because I have so much spiritual knowledge and can help them understand what they are going through. But it is not that easy for me or "flowing".
Sometimes, I even feel bad knowing I can't help those people much or protect them on a more advanced scale because they are usually loved ones very close to me.
But I feel blind somehow in those regards.I meditate and have been meditating although not trying to advance just maintenance as I have been busy. (Cleaning, protection, void, workings.)
Pluto powerfully aspecting Mercury is excellent for focus and concentration. It comes from someone who has worked on their soul and mind in a past life.
This aspect alone gives natural abilities for meditation, the spiritual and workings of magick. You have to practice this daily in order to strengthen and empower your abilities.
Prophetic dreams can come to someone who has Uranus in their 12th house. There are many other placements as well. We are all different.
The most important is to empower your soul daily through Yoga, physical asanas, using words of power/mantras, chakra work and so on. Workings helps to manifest desires, and you can easily do this with your Mercury/Pluto contact.
Yoga the Eight-Fold path is the fastest way to obtain so-called supernatural abilites.
You seem to only be doing workings to manifest certain things, and cleaning and AoP. This alone is not enough to obtain more spiritual and occult abilities and power. As you advance through soul empowerment, you will experience more of your own abilities and other things of the Occult and the Spiritual.
Do not be jealous of anyone. Be strong in your own and know you already got what it takes to grow powerful! Just implement more to your daily routine. In a year, you will be on a much higher level.