I want to be loved, please everyone and be the best. I want to be the prettiest, the coolest, the most everything. I want everyone to look at me and choose me. This is embarrassing but it's mostly with men( but with women too), I'm doing everything and plan to do many things in my appearance to please them. I want them to like me. I've never been chosen or wanted in my life and I'm trying to change that, but it's killing me because there are things that are far from my genetics and only with a lot of pain to achieve. I am very nice and good to people, not to like me but because I was born that way. I'm losing myself and I don't know who I am anymore. Yesterday I was training and almost crying because frustration and a phrase came into my head "you will not be able to change if it is for others" and that stayed until I fell asleep.
Discussion
If you want to be loved then you must first start loving yourself. It is possible that you have self-esteem problems. You can start Sun Square or use the Sowilo rune.
Not everyone will be able to like you. This is the reality. But that doesn't mean that you won't come across people in your life who will fully love and accept you (maybe you already have such people?)
Focus on your qualities and aim for self-development. Trying to please every person will only make you suffer. You must learn to love yourself.
Lead TranslatorThe first problem is that you want to be the "most everything". This is not how reality works. Everyone is an individual and somebody will always hate you. Accept yourself of who you are right now and make improvements from here.
Blitz's recent article will help also:
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=88707&p=458600#p458600Full site ↗