Personally, it helps me to know mechanism behind each spiritual exercise, it makes it instantly more potent, i wonder if we can get that in God rituals, at least general short view of mechanism, or benefits,
Also, i wonder how i can upgrade my experience in rituals, i have 1 recurrent experience : Bliss, and sleepiness too, relaxation and those kind of things. Sometimes Gods visiting, Theophanies, or excessive agressive signs from the God after the ritual for few days, which i do not know what it means, is he calling me to do more of that ritual? Or it can be something else?
Other than that, in some rituals like Ninurta i feel sometimes internally irritated, i do not know how to deal with it if i should just meditate until it goes away.
Also, while doing the ritual, i noticed, when i do it like if petitioning the God, i feel small, i still get benefits but i feel small. However when i feel powerful while doing it, it feels like internalizing the God, which is very empowering compared to the first paradigm. I just worry sometimes the Gods may register this badly. Given it lacks the reverence, it transcends the duality and it is directly union with the God, or even experiencing the God through perception, from the inside out, rather than seing him outside.
The Shenu ring, i still to this day really do not know how to get things from it, should i close eyes and visualise line a sigil? And what do you experience during the staring at the Shenu ring? How do you know you are getting something, do you feel it or you just believe it.
Same for the runes, i see everyone praising them in crazy ways, i literally experienced a lot of very potent and abnormal results through just raising my vibe ( just raising inner feeling ) and attaching affirmation to that, and keeping that going for a moment, so i know from experience and result, that i am powerful, however, when it comes to runes, i literally do not feel what many people talk about, how do you know a rune is working? What does this feels like? In mantras, i noticed i get very light headed, sometimes blissful and many other side effects that clearly hint that the mantra was potent, for example once, after finishing, i walked, i felt like i will fall, i was barely holding my body with my awareness, so i know it worked. With runes, i do not get that, at best i get sleepy or/and blissful and very relaxed thats it.
also, with vibration and chanting, many say vibration is more potent than chanting, i personally got results chanting, but vibrating just makes me feel irritated, its slow, and also it does not feel at all more powerful than chanting, i do not know if the irritation is actual proof of it working. Like, if vibration is better, how better is it than chanting ? Double ? Or what exactly? Is around 30 chanting equal to 10 vibration or what? I mean if we measure it. There must be a measurable difference..
For liturgies, it is funny, i do not know what i am reading, besides the overall God of the chanting, i do get shivers and they clearly do something, after i finish, i feel clearly the upgrade. I wonder how that can be improved. They do feel different than God Rituals, liturgies generally make me feel being a Theophoros this is the exact feeling i cultivate, with an inner peace and instant upgrade and refinement that push toward being more aligned with Divinity, in thoughts, actions and feelings. Meta awareness also. Mind sharper and also calmer, more wise etc.. liturgies feel to me literally like clicking an update button. How that can be better?
Thank you in advance !
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