Chronic exhaustion, fatigue, procrastination. Etc.

Tirnenn wrote:

Blitzkreig [JG wrote:

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Tirnenn wrote:

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Your way out of your health issues will be found in yoga and in doing self-acupressure. This will steadily improve your health, and with your newfound energy you can do even more to improve it. Like getting the ball rolling, so to speak.

The important part is that you don't give up, even if you have take a few days off. Just keep pushing and brainstorming as to how to make progress. Don't overload yourself with too many taxing meditations at the start, rather focus more on your health to build up your energy.

Funny how I find this when I am wondering just how to proceed... again.

(See how this is over a year later? Yeah. I'm not proud of myself either.)

Trying again, starting again.

Less distractions this time, more motivation this time.

Ave Satanas.

Yeah, I was a little upset that you were absent for so long. Do not worry so much about the massive dietary post I made. In reality, it is your vitality and soul's solar energy which most strongly influence your health. Someone with a strong Sun will be naturally healthyExternal ↗ and more able to eat what they want.

Although you should seek to permanently upgrade your solar energies through a larger working, doing daily yoga will add that same energy to you on an immediate basis.

The solar energies of your soul may generate, for example, +25 health/per day, but doing a good yoga routine may add +50 or +70 health points. This surplus of health points will start to change your health for the better, reducing and removing certain symptoms. Then, your bad days won't be so bad, until you can eventually "tank" them with enough surplus health.

In my opinion, yoga is much easier to do than meditations, plus it should feel directly energizing, not taxing on your mind or body. Since it also gives spiritual and physical empowerment, then it makes sense to focus heavily on that as your way out of your current struggle.

For yoga, there are many options:

Hatha/Kundalini YogaExternal ↗

Tibetan 5 RitesExternal ↗

Solar Chakra KriyaExternal ↗

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Overall, it is earth energy like Nauthiz that gives discipline, but obviously, if your willpower is lacking, then you would require more discipline to get the same result. This is where Sun/Fire energy is used, to recharge your willpower, health, mental confidence, etc.

If your Sun and Mars are in bad signs or have bad aspects, then you will know that is your problem. Similarly, if your Saturn is bad, and you are lacking other earth placements, then you know any lost productivity is an earth problem.

Another way to think about it: If you feel good and happy, but just feel like doing work is boring, then that is a discipline problem. If you feel unwell, depressed, or unwilling to do anything, then that is more of a fire problem.

Working with both types of energy, through 40-day workings, will help you achieve permanent changes.

Good luck!

Blitzkreig [JG wrote:

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I'm actually kind of amused - and touched - that somebody remembered me and had concern after all this time.
I'm not so sure it's a weak Sun; my Sun Sign is Aries after all (it's partially why I have Sailor Mars as my picture, Exalted in Aries). Ascendant is Scorpio (Mars?). I'm really not sure how to assess for bad aspects.

Looking at this reply lead me to realizing a Sun Square was/is definitely for the best. All of the detail in the post about Squares is really helpful. I did the first day of the working about an hour ago. I added the yoga pages to my routine, although I don't think I have the physical strength (yet) to do most of it.

Doing meditation definitely feels more like "boring work"... although my lack pf physical energy doesn't help much. No depression when thinking of doing meditation/yoga/etc.

I'll definitely work with the Sun Square to start off with, for now.

I appreciate all the help.

Blitzkreig [JG wrote:

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Apologies for the double-post, but do you have any idea what type of Planetary Square would be best to free oneself of PTSD? Particularly sexual and... well, my signature also basically says the other type of trauma.

In short, I feel like it would be Mars (ie the Sacral Chakra) since that seems related to what the issue is, but I'm really not sure if it would be Mars and I'm also not sure what type (Physical or Spiritual) or affirmation I would use. Or if a Planetary Square would be the best thing to do, but I prefer doing those.

Obviously I'm not going to be changing my mind on the subject in my signature, but it would certainly be nice to go through life without having negative reactions (ranging from nausea all the way to suicidal spirals) just because I saw a chain of PTSD-related (yet completely normal) words.

Anyways, advice is definitely appreciated.

On a happier note... I've been far better since I started doing the Sun Square. Best I've ever felt in my life. I am continuing this trend.

Blitzkreig [JG wrote:

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...gods, now I remember. I had actually tried to do that 40-day working previously. I was cut off on Day 35 because I couldn't get any privacy. I think cutting it off backlashed, because I spiraled into one of the worst bouts of depression I had ever experienced... for years.

I'm not sure if I can really handle 108 times each for 120 days; my throat tends to hurt even after 35 repetitions of a phrase or chant, very weak throat and/or throat chakra. When I did the working years ago, I remember doing 54 repititions of Munka.

I'm still unsure of the working's affirmation, but I think I remember my roommate saying (a while ago) that my sacral chakra was damaged... so I could start there.

Tirnenn wrote:

...gods, now I remember. I had actually tried to do that 40-day working previously. I was cut off on Day 35 because I couldn't get any privacy. I think cutting it off backlashed, because I spiraled into one of the worst bouts of depression I had ever experienced... for years.

I'm not sure if I can really handle 108 times each for 120 days; my throat tends to hurt even after 35 repetitions of a phrase or chant, very weak throat and/or throat chakra. When I did the working years ago, I remember doing 54 repititions of Munka.

I'm still unsure of the working's affirmation, but I think I remember my roommate saying (a while ago) that my sacral chakra was damaged... so I could start there.

Yes, do however many reps you can support. In my own experience, my throat had quickly improved the more I pushed it. Beyond the throat chakra itself, this can be related to overall vitality and the ability to sustain this activity, or repair afterwards.

Your affirmations are just a written guide for you to focus on a certain concept and other conditions. In other words, you already know about the idea in your head, now you just need to turn it into a written expression. In reality, the wording doesn't even need to be grammatically correct, as long as you understand it. It could also be an image or something.

The important part is just that you capture what you are changing and you can repeat that energetic process over every day of the working.

Yes, your sacral chakra could be damaged, although any damage from an event can extend beyond that. At the same time, focusing on any sacral chakra damage, not just that from one event, could would help improve your energy and other sacral functions even more.

Therefore, you have to think about what is most important to you. What are your major limitations or stressors? These should be targeted first. Keep in mind that fully resolving major problems can take a long time, but it should still like it is getting better. You don't have to finish it entirely in one working, but you could stop and restart after doing 80 days, for example. Sometimes this is necessary when good conditions arise for other workings.

Tirnenn wrote:

For the record, I'm 30. Female.

I'm rather tired all the time and don't know why.
I keep forgetting to do things even if I have a reminder in front of my face.

As for the procrastination, I've been a (dedicated) Zevist for 11 years and... as far as spiritual prowess goes, I may have as well started yesterday.
Nothing seems to motivate me to do much of anything spiritual for more than a couple days.
It took me about a year just to make this thread because I kept procrastinating and forgetting about making said thread.

(This is unrelated to the main topic I began typing about, but libido is in the negatives... mainly due to trauma / PTSD that happened about 7 years ago. I wish that was gone, but I feel like I can't really do anything about it at the moment.)

You sound like me a couple years ago. Everyone saying consistency is key is right. If you feel highly unmotivated, start with 1 breath for certain things. Then as you set these minimum goals, you will gradually become motivated and it will come naturally. Gradually increase (ex: 1 breath aura cleaning, next week 2, by the time a year is up you could be doing the full aura cleaning each day and it will seem normal and easy) Also I know this is said a lot, but drinking enough water is important. Drink a glass first thing after you wake up even if you are running late. I used to want to sleep 10 or more hours a day and over time my energy levels have increased. I still have days where I struggle to focus, but feel better that I am at least trying my best. You will feel better when you can stick to your routine/goals, now matter how small they start. I stagnated for many months and things are finally improving. You can grow too! You can do this!

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