The moment I feel beautiful and am truly considered beautiful by everyone around me, an infection and other health problems arise. When I say okay and keep my focus on beauty, when I strive for it, more serious events occur that cause this issue to take a back seat. The illnesses of the people around me and my inability to get rid of the eye infection I have no matter what I do. I tried to make my eyes look beautiful, I do everything I can to look beautiful, and it's precisely when I'm focused on my eyes that the infection starts. I've been dealing with this problem since the end of October, and I'm not sure what kind of work I need to do about it.
In particular, would it make sense to work on breaking negative karma in this regard? Is it possible for negative karma related to beauty to exist?