Family: #79597 Please, someone help me, this is awful.

You are not your father

I had a moment like this, you can't really change this, you have his genetics and at the end of the day, he made you. So it is what it is. You gotta look yourself at the mirror and love yourself.

Ask Satya Operator wrote:View source

I realized and accepted that I don’t think I’m ugly because someone once told me that or because of the social medias. It’s because of my father. I hate my father, and I look like him. Out of all his children, I’m the only one who really resembles him, as my mom always said, “you’re his image.” Since I despise him, I see him in the mirror every day, and that makes me hate my face. I want to change my hair, my eyes, my nose, my lips, my smile, anything that could distance me from him.

I remember the time when I loved myself and genuinely thought I was beautiful. That was when I was his little princess, when I adored him. The moment we started drifting apart, I started disliking my face, and as things got worse between us, my self-hate grew stronger and stronger.

Now I can’t stand him. I feel disgusted by him, and because of that, I feel disgusted by my own face. I want plastic surgery so badly because I can’t take seeing him in the mirror anymore.

I'm desperate, I feel trapped inside my own body, in my own face. And i don't have money for a bunch of plastic surgery.

Can you tell me what happened between you and your father? Things started off good by the sounds of it. How come things went south and you started drifting apart? Can there be any reconciliation? Do you think he may also experience self hate?

Your relationship with your father seems to be the root of this, so your efforts need to be focused here, whether that's repairing the relationship or forgiving and letting go, or some other thing. Going under the knife will not fix the heart of the issue and it will not do any favors for your natural beauty.

When was the last time you were involved with somebody who made you feel beautiful? Do you think that love could help you feel better about yourself?

Goldenwings wrote:

Can you tell me if you are man or women ( if its not personal) since that will make a big difference in the way i will answer

Woman.

Epiphany wrote:View source

Can you tell me what happened between you and your father?

We drifted apart. He started dating new people and getting married again, leaving me on the sidelines. Later I realized he had always neglected me, I just didn’t notice it because I was a child who adored her father and thought he was the best. He did the bare minimum, and every chance he got to push me aside, he did.

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Things started off good by the sounds of it. How come things went south and you started drifting apart?

After I turned 8, I began to see things more clearly. And around 13 or 14, everything really changed , that’s when we grew apart for good.

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Can there be any reconciliation?

No. He harmed not only me, but other people, and even animals.

Epiphany wrote:View source

Do you think he may also experience self hate?

Yes and no. My father was always the kind of person you could never read, you never knew what he was thinking, what he would do, or how he would react. That caused me a lot of trauma too.

Epiphany wrote:View source

When was the last time you were involved with somebody who made you feel beautiful?

Let’s just say I’ve basically never dated.

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Do you think that love could help you feel better about yourself?

I think so, it’s even in my chart. When people I like compliment me, I already feel better, imagine if it were a boyfriend.
Maybe I have relationship karma that I should work on maybe that's why I cant never find anyone.

Ask Satya Operator wrote:View source

feel disgusted by my own face. I want plastic surgery so badly because I can’t take seeing him in the mirror anymore.

I am short of time and your post deserves more attention that I will have in a later moment.
In short : you are NOT like your father. Your mind has been programmed by your karmic forces to think you are like him. You are not, your father is NOT your twin, it's genetically impossible you have the same face.
It's a game your mind play to create a connection with him and engage in the same lifestyle, to push family karma forward.
You are on the good path by refusing to be like him. Keep on.
I know this by direct experience on myself. You will succeed, with time, to detach from this "master plan" of karmic origin.