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Thing is, my chart is of a very social (but introverted) person. I am just so dogshit at fitting in with people of this civilisation. I would fit right in on a place like Lemuria/Atlantis or the Ancient Civilisations, I'm pretty sure my past life was something like that. Which is why the contradiction, I just don't belong here. And I don't like these people.
I feel like I have to constantly censor myself in a way that is basically self-harm to my psyche. I'm not good at lying.
I want badly to be social, but only with high IQ, or artistic people, and good souls. I just don't care that much about anyone else except of basic courtesy/politeness.
My CR is Venus Virgo 11th, and heavy Aquarius Libra Sagittarius emphasis on houses/planets u mentioned. Maybe I am too picky, but idk. I think it's good to have standards. Do u think this is unwise/stupid? Will Venus Square fix this?
I looked at the stuff you mentioned, and it just seems I can basically only exist in permanent higher education environment lifelong in the sciences/arts/occult, but i dropped out before high school so i dont have qualifications to enter University
It's perfectly healthy to want social contact and limiting it only to the right souls. It's a perfectly normal standard for higher-minded people. It's not unwise. Neither it is stupid. You're not being too picky.
You also don't need formal qualification to keep learning and educating yourself on specific topics, and you can find people who are interested in that by looking for groups both online and offline where those topics are discussed such as on here, on MeetUp and surely any directory online that you can find for offline groups that relate to your interests and preferred environment. You can also always go back to formal education any time if you feel the need to, and the circumstances are right.
Working on your solar plexus chakra, middle chakra, and throat chakra will be beneficial, both in purification and in empowerment.
Mercury can help with bring intellectual people as friends if you use the spiritual square to empower your 11th house, or any of the 2 squares to attract the right people. The material square acts on your environment, the spiritual on your self. Venus definitely can help in general, and it can also help with specific houses depending on what it rules in your chart and where it's placed. Jupiter and Sun help with blessing any area of life, any house in your chart.
For dating, you can use Venus, or your 5th house ruler.
Once you have the right people, you can understand better the dynamics of who you can share with, who you need to censor with, and how much you need to censor yourself. I understand the struggle of not having a confidante you can speak about anything with, and how it can make it difficult for you. In some cases, even talking therapy can help you have an outlet, as long as you still keep occult topics to yourself as the therapist may not understand them and it may be dangerous for you to reveal.