It effects my ability to be myself or act genuine. How can I fix it? Sometimes i really feel like there are spirits or whatever who are actually watching me. I’m not sure if meditations will work, I have aphantasia and I can’t visually see anything in my mind. Am I really being watched or haunted? Or is it just in my head?
Discussion
This is a lack of self-esteem. You are afraid of what others think of you, and especially the Gods, since they see all. Accept that you will make mistakes and they are yours to make. It's just a part of your journey.
Why do you feel this way inside? What triggered it? It’s a bit like you’re aware of something special, like the ToZ, and you’re afraid that someone will harm you because of it. You will be able to overcome this through self-reflection; you just need to ask yourself the right questions.
Its normal to feel watched. But dont take it bad.