What the fuck? What can I do about it? Why am I being treated like this?
It's not life that teases you by humiliating you, it's yourself that humiliates and demeans you with these desires to not do a fucking thing useful except to have a passive income of money because you don't want to work even two hours for a living, or stuff regarding being the fucking pet abused by a mistress...
It is you who treats yourself that way, your life is just what you are creating (this concept will be hard for you to understand if you keep thinking that universal earnings are passive. No, nothing is passive. It is all the fruit of your efforts. If you are a blob you are not going to attract positive things just because you want to, and magic is not going to send the trillion-dollar winnings home to you because you are sitting on the couch and you said you are rich while putting blob energy around you).
It is a disgusting mentality of wanting to get things for free and then having the economic availability to be the foot-licking slave of the mistress. I don't know how you think this is noble and that the universe is obligated to instantly provide you with a mistress who spanks you because you want it and you MUST HAVE IT RIGHTLY!
No, that is a perverted view. I personally refuse to even use my powers to win the lottery because I am disgusted by the money I get without having worked for shit by contributing to society to get it. *Obviously this argument does not apply to satanic events such as the Yule Raffle which was simply a fun game where you felt our family unit to try to get a nice gift from Satan Clause, but that this was just an excuse to take care of your ToZ house.
However, when it is just a scratch-off or a TV draw lottery where the purpose is just money without anything meaningful and elevated behind it, I have always refused to participate because by nature it makes me annoyed to get things by default without having worked on them.
Also, really, try to value yourself. You are in Zevism here. No God would desire a "mistress." You will be much happier if you come back mentally healthy by valuing yourself and living a life rich in values for your person as well, than you would be happy by getting a bitch who ties you to the bed and whips you and then puts a leash on you and makes you walk on all fours, I mean, do you notice on your own that something is wrong?
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