Is there a meditation or a God ritual to help with my ill-natured personality?
It is horrendous. I am biased because it is literally the antithesis of everything I am and I represent what you wrote, but it is truly horrendous.
If you want someone who can only give you helpful advice while you are insensitive or aggressive toward this person, get a free account on chatgpt instead of thriving in the suffering of those who love you. It literally makes no sense to rejoice in the failures of others because it means not only that you are not desiring anything more in your life than failures (if you thought about improving and advancing yourself for example, you would be seriously bothered by the general concept of "being in ruins" applied to both yourself and others, you would only be bothered by the concept)...
But it is also creepy because it means that you do not consider yourself capable of achieving anything good beyond the tears of those who love you. But the tears of those who love you are not personal gain. What good are you doing with other people's suffering? How does this benefit you? Standing there enjoying half an hour that the person who has always shown himself to care about you is in serious pain, what did you achieve that was concretely useful?
You literally could have made better use of the half-hour in question for yourself. Then if, in addition to using the half-hour for yourself, you had devoted another half-hour for this friend of yours, you would have shown yourself to be at least a normal living being yourself. You know, you don't live in a world of slaves, nor would you want all your slaves to be slaves. It is truly HAPPIER to find ourselves in mutually supportive situations.
Think for example of our High Priest Zevios Metathronos. I'm really sure he feels much, much, much happier to be a lovingly supportive as a benevolent leader of his people than he would be if he were the leader of a bullshit Christian sect brainwashing bigots. And that's not my opinion of how I think he feels, that's just the way it is:
Hp. Zevios Metathronos wrote:I agree, all the investment of my existence, finances, time, energy, thoughts, spirit, everything, is also on the best place I could ever ask for. It has made my existence valid and true. I could never think of anything that was a more high quality endeavor to do than devote everything to the Gods and their people either. Thank you!
