Ashamed and upset. Need advice.

[thesacredruler]

I've dedicated a few months ago. But due to my circumstances I am not being able to perform my meditations regularly. I study in Government Military College and due to my stiff schedule (I have to wake up at 5 A.M. for P.T. or drill and perform various activities all day long). Still I manage to find some time for my daily meditations but due to lots of work, but due to lack of proper rest, I can't meditate perfectly. I don't get proper energy sensation or lack concentration. I've been practicing HPHC's beginner program for 2 months but I still struggle to visualize properly. I thought it is due to weak 3rd eye so I tried opening it using the process. But when I vibrate rune THAUM, I cant properly place the vibration in the middle of forehead.( i know it takes time and practice for proper placement but I don't have time). I'm on vacation right now and I'll be leaving after 4 days. Then I'll have no access to internet or phone till beginning of October. My state exam will start on August and end on October. I'm really mad at myself for this miserable situation I'm in.

I don't know what to do. I decided to practice first month training for spiritual satanists for next months. I need advice on what else can I do to support my practice and increase efficiency. Are there any runes or practice which I can do to cut a good figure in the exam?

Also I'll graduate from college on October. As I've been in a military college for 6 years my parents expect me to join Army. But that would mean an end to my spirituality. I don't want to upset my parents and I don't know how to convince them that I don't want to join Army (asian parents !!). Do you have any tips for me?

BTW, I want to find my Guardian Demon. What can I do? Finding my GD will increase my patience and motivation significantly.

(p.s. I turned 18 this July)

Sorry if my whining bothers you. I really needed to vent my feelings.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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Don't be too hard on yourself in regards to your spiritual progress if you are new. Yes, empowering the 3rd eye AND 6th chakra, and cleaning them well, will help your astral sight. In addition, practice actually looking at your chakras through your third eye, as well as practicing holding a shape in your head for a few minutes. All of this will train your astral sight and visualization.

You focus vibrations through your willpower. Even if you cannot accurately feel the energy, you must command it to go there. This is how you manipulate energy without having perfect senses, although it can take some time to get confident.

Additionally, as this is only a matter of will, you can press your finger right on your forehead, or close to anywhere else you want the energy to go. Then use that to focus on. Imagine the energy building on the tip of your finger and entering the chakra, or wherever else you want it.

Also imagine the noise that the energy makes as it interacts with your chakra. Again, this helps connect your mind's senses to your intentions without having to rely on sight alone.

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For school, you can use yellow energy and inhale this every day. Affirm it has increased your school performance, in a positive way. In addition, or alternatively, you can vibrate Dagaz to aid understanding, Nauthiz for discipline, or Kenaz for a drive to study and learn. Start on waxing moons if possible, like the upcoming Virgo or Sagittarius moons.

In regards to changing your career, you will just have to tell them that you don't want a career in the military anymore. Tell them you don't like the work/life balance, which is true. Maybe you can say you would rather just be a policeman or other security work.

As you are still young and growing up, it is normal to have new ideas about what you want out of life. The army is not the only place you will be successful, especially if you are a dedicated Satanist. Furthermore, the training you had, and the skills you gained, can still apply elsewhere. It is not like the whole 6 years was a waste.

Look at your astrology chart. Your Mars and Pluto houses and signs show where you can direct lots of energy and are passionate. You Sun sign/house shows where you create and receive value and authority. Your Saturn shows where you are naturally disciplined. Your Jupiter shows where you are naturally knowledgeable and know where to create expansions/are lucky. Mercury shows what you naturally understand best, and where or how you like to communicate.

Look at your 10th house planets and sign to see how you manage your career. For example, Mars here would show that you are aggressive and driven with your career, likely better working alone or working in a martial field. On the opposite, Venus shows you work best with others and in diplomatic or communicative fields.

Knowing the above, you can speak confidently to your parents about alternative ideas. Take multiple career tests online and have a clear idea of what you want to do. Displaying any of the above positive traits about a field, plus these test results, will make it easier for your parents to accept your new path.

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You can ask Satan about your GD. Remember that Satan is also there for you, regardless of whether you know your GD or not.

Also, ask Satan for help or advice about your parents and your career. Make it clear that you would rather help him and his cause, but you can't do this unless you can get out of the army. Then try to pay attention to any signs or opportunities which may come your way.

 

[StraitShot47]

I assume you're young, since you are in government training. You're a kid and you will continue to remain a kid, at least physically until 25. This is a fact of life. You also mention that you only recently joined the JOS a few months ago.

You're a kid trying to do too much at once. If I were you, I would focus on 3 things. Void meditation and grounding, light to moderate yoga work and finally YOUR STUDIES!

I might get flak for this, but those 40 day working guides should only be for those that are in their career and or older than 25. You're trying to use runes when your energy could be better spent else where.

 

[Lunar Dance 666]

I assume you're young, since you are in government training. You're a kid and you will continue to remain a kid, at least physically until 25. This is a fact of life. You also mention that you only recently joined the JOS a few months ago.

You're a kid trying to do too much at once. If I were you, I would focus on 3 things. Void meditation and grounding, light to moderate yoga work and finally YOUR STUDIES!

I might get flak for this, but those 40 day working guides should only be for those that are in their career and or older than 25. You're trying to use runes when your energy could be better spent else where.

Dude the guide was/is meant to help starters. There is no age limit on when to start the 40 day or 6 month guide nor is there a limit on doing 40 day workings or whatever.

You do what you can do and are capable of currently.

Do not be limited by what someone else says one should do or shouldnt do. Thats not how life works.


Ive heard the nonsense being said that "spirituality should only be for the old whom have had children and a family because theres no time to do it sooner". THAT IS JUST UTTER BULLSHIT.

How many of us have come here at a young age looking for a way out or having genuine interest in spirituality and the occult??

Some people don't even make it past their teens, are they supposed to be bothered with the same issues over and over again?! WTF.
Are people just supposed to suffer all their life then??

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

Some people don't even make it past their teens, are they supposed to be bothered with the same issues over and over again?! WTF.
Are people just supposed to suffer all their life then??

I agree that we should not pointlessly limit ourselves. There is a balance between the expansion of Jupiter and the contraction of Saturn. Saturn teaches us to respect real obstacles and survive despite their existence, whereas Jupiter shows us the path ahead and how best to get there. Both are essential for success.

Because the OP grew up in military school, he is probably more likely than others to be able to pull off feats of hard work. Unfortunately now I believe he is gone and without internet, but that is why I tried to immediately answer him.

 

[AFODO]

Dude the guide was/is meant to help starters. There is no age limit on when to start the 40 day or 6 month guide nor is there a limit on doing 40 day workings or whatever.

You do what you can do and are capable of currently.

Do not be limited by what someone else says one should do or shouldnt do. Thats not how life works.


Ive heard the nonsense being said that "spirituality should only be for the old whom have had children and a family because theres no time to do it sooner". THAT IS JUST UTTER BULLSHIT.

How many of us have come here at a young age looking for a way out or having genuine interest in spirituality and the occult??

Some people don't even make it past their teens, are they supposed to be bothered with the same issues over and over again?! WTF.
Are people just supposed to suffer all their life then??

It is actually easier when you are young, because you have more time.
I think the person thought that after your career running after 25 yrs old, you have more time to do this program.
Sometimes a kid has less time than an adult but usually its the other way around, so it is really don't matter how old are you, but how many time do you have.
When I was a beginner, that much meditation seemed to be too much, and now I meditate more than that.
I don't think the 40day meditation is the most suitable to every beginner, because it is better to start small and grow from there. the 6 months warfare training in this case is way better as it is not forcing you to start with much meditation, but you can complement it.

Somebody said that the 40 day program is outdated, so it will has a new version, I hope it will start with less meditation, or at least changeable options so that lets say you only have to meditate once a day because you don't have time at night and at the morning, ect... So every beginners can actually start with this.

 

[StraitShot47]

I assume you're young, since you are in government training. You're a kid and you will continue to remain a kid, at least physically until 25. This is a fact of life. You also mention that you only recently joined the JOS a few months ago.

You're a kid trying to do too much at once. If I were you, I would focus on 3 things. Void meditation and grounding, light to moderate yoga work and finally YOUR STUDIES!

I might get flak for this, but those 40 day working guides should only be for those that are in their career and or older than 25. You're trying to use runes when your energy could be better spent else where.

Dude the guide was/is meant to help starters. There is no age limit on when to start the 40 day or 6 month guide nor is there a limit on doing 40 day workings or whatever.

You do what you can do and are capable of currently.

Do not be limited by what someone else says one should do or shouldnt do. Thats not how life works.


Ive heard the nonsense being said that "spirituality should only be for the old whom have had children and a family because theres no time to do it sooner". THAT IS JUST UTTER BULLSHIT.

How many of us have come here at a young age looking for a way out or having genuine interest in spirituality and the occult??

Some people don't even make it past their teens, are they supposed to be bothered with the same issues over and over again?! WTF.
Are people just supposed to suffer all their life then??

Back down, I am not here to fight.

The original poster, TheSacredRuler, is obviously having trouble or they would not have made a thread. So following the 40 day guide is not working for them.

Secondly the OP is only 18 and just got into university(government training?). So this child is in a new environment. Also this child thinks that they are failing.

Lastly, and this part is to you because the above are only facts restated, what do you think an 18's priorities should be? Studies, trying to get a partner, or learning Witchcraft at university? I seem to think Studies and acquiring a mate would be better time spent.

The Joy of Satan will be here, when the time is right. Also, sometimes just knowing which side you're on and being "aware" can more than suffice in life... I don't want to put words in Cobra's mouth, but I'm pretty sure he has stated the like before.

 

[Henu the Great]

Lastly, and this part is to you because the above are only facts restated, what do you think an 18's priorities should be? Studies, trying to get a partner, or learning Witchcraft at university? I seem to think Studies and acquiring a mate would be better time spent.

None of these exclude the other, really. Ignoring the spiritual side of life would result in fewer opportunities and less potential for growth in other areas of life, such as in studies and relationships. And if there are no restrictions, such as a hostile environment or lack of privacy for example then it would not make sense to ignore the possibility of advancing spiritually. The key is having a balanced approach. But if the circumstances do make spiritual routine very difficult or impossible to keep up due to the environment like in this instance then it is another matter and one would do wisely to look for opportunities for a better environment that enables the possibility of spiritual growth more freely instead of ignoring the whole prospect.

 

[Father's Child 777]

Has the shame subsided yet? It ought to. This is not like lying in a confessional box or skipping hailmarys. Nobody will punish you for what's happening. You obviously care and you'll have time and energy eventually.

 

[StraitShot47]

Lastly, and this part is to you because the above are only facts restated, what do you think an 18's priorities should be? Studies, trying to get a partner, or learning Witchcraft at university? I seem to think Studies and acquiring a mate would be better time spent.

None of these exclude the other, really. Ignoring the spiritual side of life would result in fewer opportunities and less potential for growth in other areas of life, such as in studies and relationships. And if there are no restrictions, such as a hostile environment or lack of privacy for example then it would not make sense to ignore the possibility of advancing spiritually. The key is having a balanced approach. But if the circumstances do make spiritual routine very difficult or impossible to keep up due to the environment like in this instance then it is another matter and one would do wisely to look for opportunities for a better environment that enables the possibility of spiritual growth more freely instead of ignoring the whole prospect.

I agree Henu, in certain cases though. Like if a child was introduced to the SS lifestyle at a young age or if the student was a genius and breezing through their courses.

But since this is an 18 year old and only recently joined our ranks, and all at university too. The advice can only be so much.

 

[Henu the Great]

Lastly, and this part is to you because the above are only facts restated, what do you think an 18's priorities should be? Studies, trying to get a partner, or learning Witchcraft at university? I seem to think Studies and acquiring a mate would be better time spent.

None of these exclude the other, really. Ignoring the spiritual side of life would result in fewer opportunities and less potential for growth in other areas of life, such as in studies and relationships. And if there are no restrictions, such as a hostile environment or lack of privacy for example then it would not make sense to ignore the possibility of advancing spiritually. The key is having a balanced approach. But if the circumstances do make spiritual routine very difficult or impossible to keep up due to the environment like in this instance then it is another matter and one would do wisely to look for opportunities for a better environment that enables the possibility of spiritual growth more freely instead of ignoring the whole prospect.

I agree Henu, in certain cases though. Like if a child was introduced to the SS lifestyle at a young age or if the student was a genius and breezing through their courses.

But since this is an 18 year old and only recently joined our ranks, and all at university too. The advice can only be so much.

I do not see how 10 minutes for cleaning and protection, 5 to 10 minutes of void meditation and 1 to 3 times 5 minute session of breathing exercises is above what is possible for a beginner, even when studying. This is just an example, and a few asanas, totalling of say, 10 to 15 minutes per day is a good amount to start by. In total one can pack everything in well under an hour per day. Actually, if we go by the 40 day meditation program, it is even less. And furthermore nothing of the above is beyond of scope skill-wise what a new Spiritual Satanist is capable of or should not be doing. Quite the contrary, these practices would accustom a person to meditative practices quite well. Each and everyone would benefit from these, especially those who come from a troubling background as these activities most certainly can act as an catalyst to breaking free from restrictions. The most important step is the first step, and to keep stepping.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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You misread the OP's post. They have been in military school for 6 years and will graduate soon. This is much different from just starting.

Spiritual health is extremely important and has been neglected by Gentiles for many centuries. Yes, one's studies are important, but doing this at the expense of spiritual health is the same disastrous route Gentiles of the past have taken.

Thinking that everything is fine just because you have faith in the Gods, but neglect spiritual growth, is just as delusional as those who avoid the material aspect of life.

 

[StraitShot47]

I never said to skip spirituality, only to focus mainly on finishing strong in this part in his life. He has 3 months to graduation, no reason to jump into this head first.

You are right, I didn't know he was already in military school for 6 years. Perhaps he could stand a more rigorous schedule, but if he is already vibrating thaum in the wrong position.

The best advice is finish up the schooling, he has 3 months. Focus hard on studies with moderate yoga and void meditation he will be fine.

He should come back to us in 3 months or after graduation and then we can iron out what he should practice.

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You misread the OP's post. They have been in military school for 6 years and will graduate soon. This is much different from just starting.

Spiritual health is extremely important and has been neglected by Gentiles for many centuries. Yes, one's studies are important, but doing this at the expense of spiritual health is the same disastrous route Gentiles of the past have taken.

Thinking that everything is fine just because you have faith in the Gods, but neglect spiritual growth, is just as delusional as those who avoid the material aspect of life.